well another day over with. not been good feeling really tired, constantly fighting to keep going, just want to sleep, or hide. little energy and running on empty! oh crap just another day.
works geting really difficult trying to find a job in another department but feeling i have been overlooked. the job i am currently has really come to an end and the work has moved to another office, really can't afford not to be working but there seems little hope that another role will be found. moving onto another office is really quite scary and daunting, new people new manager, and a whole new work area! how will i cope? if at all. coping mechanism in place, not sure, and really trying not to focus on the what maybe's. but what if a job can't be found? can't go through filling out application forms and attending interviews! My god that's a scary thought. SA is the pits i know i can do it but i'm so scared, scared even of my own shadow. people don't get it don'r get me, even the people i thought were my friends, but no time to leave them behind it's too much effort trying to get them to understand. but hey why should I do they really care i think not. anyway it's good to have somewhere i can to let it all out. so if your rreading this thank you for taking the time it means a lot to very lonely man.