I have been suspecting that I may have aspergers for some time, more so presently with the work experience and a few other stuff.

I don't appear autistic to most people I think, I appear normal but very shy and worried. However I seem to attract somewhat negative responses from those around me 9/10 times unintentionally, from people thinking that I am staring at them (and no this is not all in my mind) to having people ready to confront or tease me. I also have always found it hard...

Last week I failed an interview for an apprenticeship I felt I wanted. I researched them, I liked how they helped society. Failing this job was like a smack in the face, but maybe I needed to fail the interview because failing it has made me more aware, or just more honest, with knowing what I want to do.

It feels mentally hard to be honest with career aspirations when people have certain expectations for you. It feels like I have fooled myself with thinking I wanted to be an engineer,...

Last week I can say that I had a good week, which is very rare for me.

I started work experience at Unilever. Whilst I can say that I still encountered usual social problems and anxiety so far it has been a good, eye opening experience and motivated me to try more with my job search. So far my work experience isn't my dream job or even my dream job environment but it does show what is possible if I try harder. I like the amount of independence and freedom that the department I'm working...

I mentioned before I joined elefriends a while ago. Its a site for people with mental health problems designed a bit like Facebook I suppose where people can leave messages and others reply to them. However like most sites I just read all these people speaking to each other and feel like I am on a different planet. It doesn't get better or easier like the message says, it never does. I try to make some replies and comments to others but they are ignored. When I have made some myself they did get...

I know I recently made a thread covers this topic.

Since making that thread I have been to a few Apprenticeship/Networking Open Days and prior to that was on a Spear programme which had a few people who seemed completely normal and a few people that seemed to have learning difficulties or other difficulties.

One thing I have noticed is from certain people at Spear and the Open Days I have attended is that feeling intimidated and scared of others is probably a more...