Heey was wandering anyone interested in meeting in Edinburgh?

I really would like to talk to people and hear your stories, ive never done this before so i hope everyone would be open to this as it may seem a bit scary? but i also feel it would be easier since we are going through similar things?

Maany

Shy people are egotistical, vain, self centred, narcissistic? I have heard all this before over the years and that part of having SA is all about your ego as you must think you are so important if everyone is looking at or thinking about you when you go out. I think this concept is mostly balls and heaps even more guilt on people often already racked with guilt for something they did not create or want. Its similar to the idea still having shyness past a certain age is all your own fault for not...

This week I have did part time office cleaning work through my agency, Monday to Friday, 6am to 10am. I am set on a contract to do this until February. Also, I don't think it's a phase but I decided to take music production more seriously and build more of an understanding on mixing and synths. This made me have the opinion that I would rather a simple life and simple job, even if it's low skilled and minimum wage, over a proffessional office career as I would like to be able to devote time to learning...

After The Tech City programme I hit my lowest point. Idk if it is bad enough to be called depression but I remember breaking my pens just to express my anger. I am way too cautious and poor to break anything that feels valuable. The upcoming Saturday I couldn't get out of bed and just felt really negative. I needed to talk to The Samaritans to discuss how I felt. If I think about it I have felt the same this Christmas minus the anger. But then I guess one benefit of The Tech City Star programme...

Ok, so going induction to Tech City Stars I was nervous however I was also motivated and excited especially as I was around other motivated peers, a huge difference from the warehouse job. There were also quite a few people that were socially awkward like me and quiet, not everyone though. By the end of the course I still managed to make no friends, unintentionally gave weird eye contact and I feel was even less liked by the coaches on the programmes due to them probably not understanding social...