I think the weather and time of year plays a major part in my moods. After being away for a couple of weeks I return to almost unrelenting cloud and drizzle day after day. The only rare moment of any sun was Saturday afternoon(after rain all morning)when I went out for a walk. However a walk around town is hardly special or uplifting when I have done it so many times before. I was looking forward to autumn as it's my favourite time of year for photography with the colours of the trees and the deer...

Its so easy to sink into the abyss of depression and want to give up on everything. The light at the end of the tunnel gets forever smaller and harder to reach. Over the last few weeks and months(if not years!) my mood has nose dived so far its hard to imagine feeling normal or happy ever again. Maybe my brain has gone doodah. Sometimes I hardly sleep at all and then other days I sleep until midday. Motivation collapses and the point for continued existence is harder to find. I have tried to do...

I'm currently listening to Vivaldi's Four Seasons. Despite its popularity and resulting slagging off as nothing more than elevator music I still think it's some of the greatest music ever written and touches my soul. On monday and tuesday I got up at midday. Thats the latest I have ever gotten out of bed in my life but I was beginning to feel chronically fatigued and had taken some particular tablets the nights before. I feel like I have suddenly aged 15 years in six months. I ache and am exhausted...

I don't know if anyone really cares about my experience at work but I do and have decided to share it.

It's funny how ones view can shift over the span of a week. What was once the ideal job position for me presently, in my opinion, isn't so much again but I am telling myself that it is a valuable experience perhaps just so I can stick to the job. A week in and social issues have stepped into the job, similar social issues to the issues I experienced in Sixth Form College; the issues...

Recently I just got accepted to for a temporary Stockroom Assistant job role and I feel good about making some money and doing the job. Whilst I do feel this type of job is perfect for me at the moment I do get the feeling that other people would expect me to appear more ambitious as I am still young and after studying up to my A-Levels it isn't as if going for further education or a higher paying job is out of my arms reach.

But then I feel although, I am honestly all up for studying...