Okay so I cant move to the seaside just yet, so why not bring it to my bedroom? I just need to feel like there's a little bit of freedom and not just 4 walls. Excited =D

Okay so I cant move to the seaside just yet, so why not bring it to my bedroom? I just need to feel like there's a little bit of freedom and not just 4 walls. Excited =D

I recently came off holiday and omg i want to move there. I went out everyday rain or shine, I felt confident, I was surrounded by happy people.
The area im in now is right next to a retail park and thats it. I really want to move to the coast, im so unhappy where I am now. I no my parents and family would be devistated if I did, but I need their support, I couldnt ask my mum to choose between me and my brothers and sisters.
but I feel like im in a rut sitting here doing nothing, at...

I went to the Good food show & Gardeners world today, It has masses and masses of crowds, my god people are so arrogant.
I totally freaked out when I came out of the toilets, 3 women started laughing at me, I was constantly asking my family if I had something stuck on me like toilet roll etc..
I got to say, I didnt enjoy it, I felt so nevous all the time, I have to go to a christening tomorrow, Im gonna try arive early, I hate walking to your seat and everyone stares at you. ...

It's been a while since ive interacted with someone what I call 'friends'
Today I was just thinking about starting again, it's sounds like a long process in my head, having to start at the bottom of the social chain. I think the worst part is talking to a complete stranger, im not quite sure how id go about it!