I'm doing all right these days in the main. I'm near my third listen of Dr Richards cd set. Here's the link if your interested. http://www.socialanxietyinstitute.org/
But I'm finding it hard to find people I can really relate to. I'm putting myself out there and managing to have superficial chats with a variety of people but I'm just not connecting with anyone on a deeper level. I wonder if this is just down to me or am I just not meeting the right people. Am I being too picky or not giving...

I went to the Good food show & Gardeners world today, It has masses and masses of crowds, my god people are so arrogant.
I totally freaked out when I came out of the toilets, 3 women started laughing at me, I was constantly asking my family if I had something stuck on me like toilet roll etc..
I got to say, I didnt enjoy it, I felt so nevous all the time, I have to go to a christening tomorrow, Im gonna try arive early, I hate walking to your seat and everyone stares at you. ...

i so wanna write, i so totally wanna write

I wrote this on the eve of my 23rd birthday a couple of years ago exactly, what can these assembly of words tell me about that young man then that was I?

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It's been a while since ive interacted with someone what I call 'friends'
Today I was just thinking about starting again, it's sounds like a long process in my head, having to start at the bottom of the social chain. I think the worst part is talking to a complete stranger, im not quite sure how id go about it!