So its been a while...

I've tried to make a few changes in my life. For example i've started to take the bus to school. Its a big challenge for me because of the large crowd and the fact that people constantly enter my personal space.

I took an AQ test and it turns out i am low spectrum Asperges. I don't think i'lll tell my parents for a long time.

The girl i like (...) is becoming nicer to me. I don't really understand why. She tried to hug me but i...

well, mainly its about ... today. She's been going through a hard time with a breakup and being bullied i want to help her but i can't because i'm useless. I think up all these ways of injuring people sometimes i can do them but most of the time i can't. Anyway, today i found out that she is not going to come to my school again so it is very unlikely i would see her again. She said that she will text me during the holidays so that we can meet up but i think she won't do it. She suffered from SA...

ok, so first i was going to write about how trashy my day was. I am going to but it didn't go as bad as i thought it was.

Two days ago a girl i like (...) got her butt squeezed by some random people from her school. This made me really angry because i felt like i couldn't do anything about it. I hate bullies so i really wanted to hurt them. Since then she hasn't spoken to me and i'm really worried. She hasn't been going to school often either so i wonder if she's actually ok. My...

Ok, so GCSE's are coming up and my school has decided to make us do work experience so they set up a night to go around and talk to people about what they do for a living.

I didn't want to go but my parents forced me to. The only problem for me is that the meeting was in a large open hall where other people can hear everything i say. Because of this i became really stressed. I haven't told my parents about SAD because they don't acknowledge that kind of thing so i didn't know what...

To be honest with this i don't actually think people read this but i'm still going to continue doing these. This one is more of a promise to myself that i would change so don't expect much.

So my birthday is coming up and i plan to start to make a change in my personality. I'm going to try to stamp down on my SAD and hopefully get rid of it. I am going to dye my hair first so that i feel like a new person. I will make sure that i will be able to talk to new people and i will take...