With my job, through an agency, I have been given no work from this week until the 21st August. The agency can give me more work but I decided to take a break. Tbh, most of the jobs are kitchen portering and I hate the jobs, they don't suit me.

During this break I haven't done much, too anxious to go out. I've just been music producing and sound designing on my DAW, it does feel I do it too much but then it feels like I wouldn't learn as much if I didn't.

Work adds...

[B]"A common approach shy individuals will take to overcome their anxiousness is take on some big social challenge like going to a single’s bar or walking up to a model-esque woman and striking up a conversation. The problem with this approach is that if you fail to smoothly socialize, you just reinforce the narrative in your head that you’re shy and awkward, that you can’t change, that socializing is threatening, and that the only way to get rid of those threatening feelings is to avoid...

While reading about therapy for anxiety I keep coming across fear hierarchy lists. Basically these are lists of things you avoid in order of terror and anxiety. You can even have separate ones for fear of being the centre of attention, fear of public speaking and fear of speaking to certain people like attractive ones. I could probably do 57 lists, however I thought I would do one and combine them.

[B] 1.[/B] First it has to be speaking in front of a large group of people, not surprising...

I wonder how you get motivated when you are lying in the gutter. I just don’t understand. A lot of life is shit and loads of people have jobs they hate which causes them never ending stress and anxiety so the concept that everyone can have a great rewarding career is not true for most people and of course virtually impossible past a certain age. It would also require huge motivation.

When you see many of these self help Youtube videos and read the books they often have this HUGE...

[B]Hofmann: The definition of a mental disorder is that it causes either significant distress, and/or significant interference in one's life. So you might be able to perform normally during daily life, but you're terribly distressed around these social situations, such as meeting people, giving speeches, or doing things in front of people. It causes you such a level of distress that causes you to want to get help.[/B]

Well at least I know I am mental then, over 400 and never had a...