Im finally going to the dentist tomorrow after putting off a million times.
Im so nervous right now, but I cant help but saying to myself, Why am I so scared? im acting like im visiting a murder house and never returning

Today I feel so damaged.
Coca cola braught their christmas trucks for a an campain.
Obviously I was so excited to see it up close and take pictures. The problem is my mum had to be somewhere else, so she wasnt there to support me emotionally and I was stuck with my dad, he just does'nt fully understand SA.
He just does'nt encourage me and he just leaves me whenever he feel likes it even though he told my mum he'd be there for me 100%
Im now back at the house, but I feel...

Finally my little neices birthday party has come and gone.
It took me ages to put all the decs up phew
Its a total pain in the ass for me because I desperatly need to head off to the dentist, I made my tooth furious with rage by eating a few party food :/
I actually ended up in tears at the end of the night, and didnt get any sleep.
Im being forced to go to the dentist by my mom
A few months ago I did get a temporary filling to stop the pain, but after...

On tuesday its my neices birthday and my sister wants everyone to come to her daycare, it just annoys me so much when people dont understand. They know I have SA but they keep pressuring me to come along.
My mom actually said to me today '' your sister will be so dissapointed''
I really cant believe she said that to me, after all I thought she would be the only one to understand, she knows how I feel when im letting people down.

This year I actually want to visit santa's grotto, but ill feel like im being laughed at because im too old =/
im only 19 but do you think people will think im stupid for going along?