I was in the bathroom listening to the radio and heard this sort of inspiring 90's song by Baz Luhrmann- sunscreen song It really spoke to me and will probabally speak to alot of people on here too

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI

all my mum has ever done is be there for me shes always sed im a fighter and that i cant give up she loves me soo much and i feel bad because at the minuet were arguing all the time she wants to know is how to make me bettr but i dont know what im afraid of in the first place ahhhhhh

ive always felt a little shy but never knew why things have gotten so bad at home that im affraid to go out anywhere all i want is for my parents to see me as an adult but because im hiding away from everything they are sooo angry at me im in despair and lifes dragging me down all i want is to be normal like them and not feel sad annymore

All ive ever wanted is to go abroad, go traveling, im not like my family, I cant just settle down, I need to broaden my horizons, go places, see things.
When I look at it on the pc I get depressed, then I get told not to look at it because its making me sad.
I need the courage to get a job so I can afford to do these things

Ill admit it, my family isnt 'wealthy'
and at the moment im living with my parents, but this SA is always kicking me down, I feel so bad that I dont have a job, I wish I could give them aload of money.
I just feel like a massive burden, a problem child, a slacker