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Symptoms of Depression

Posted 6th August 2017 at 22:58 by indigo777

[B]1. Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions[/B]

What? Yes, Where am I? Up shit creek most of the time. My memory is not so good any more. I forget things or care.

[B]2. Fatigue and decreased energy[/B]

Yes, I feel exhausted now and dont go out much. I have become much more avoidant and often dont speak to other people for weeks. I would use SAUK more but I l always feel as comfortable here as Jeremy Corbyn at the friends of Israel conferance.

[B]3. Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness[/B]

Of course I am guilty, if you have social anxiety there is always some know it all making out you deserve to suffer for being a coward unlike them who were so, so brave and they keep telling everyone for good measure. They have apparently never had depression and wake up wanting to die themselves so think you are lying or choosing to be miserable.

[B]4. Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism[/B]

Well I may well become homeless if I cant get a job in a few years and have never had a relationship and dont speak to other people for weeks on end. Wouldn’t most people be hopeless?

[B]5. Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping[/B]

Oh yes, thankfully i am in the sleeping too much mode right now before the insomnia kicks back in. I’ve had about 20 years of this on and off.

[B]6. Irritability, restlessness[/B]

Jesus Christ yes. I feel like one of those bison that wants to charge people if they get too close in YouTube videos about Yellowstone park.Not a good idea when shopping at Tesco. Perhaps I should go on a meetup and make friends! I am sure they love miserable loners with massive paranoia and social ineptitude who act awkward all the time! Oh hang on they dont! Then they can blame me for not being friendly and sociable enough!

[B]7. Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex[/B]

Well never having sex in my entire life is part of the problem of course.And I am now 396. Do I even have a penis? Let me check. Eeek, whats this small wobbly thing between my legs for? Oh yes, peeing and nothing else I never really had many hobbies anyway due to being a mad loner.

[B]8. Overeating or appetite loss[/B]

Not really. I still get hungry and am slightly overweight.

[B]9. Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment. [/B]

Oh yes, the aches are getting worse, My digestive system goes haywire and I must poo at 2 am every morning.Recently been getting pain in the chest and finding it hard to breath.Also head aches and pains all the time and feelings of being not all there. Must stop punching myself in the head!

[B]10. Persistent sad, anxious, or “empty” feelings[/B]

Well I have had those since school to be honest, almost daily. Never ending social anxiety, having no friends or a partner while other people still saying its my fault for not trying hard enough sort of do that to you. People heap shame on you and then wonder why you are ashamed.

[B]11. Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts[/B]

Oh, I so wish I had the guts sometimes to save further pain. Its messy though. The NHS treat you like scum if you survive so better do it properly when its time.
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