"Oh, he is different."
"Other peers are moving out, trying to be independent."
"He is very nice."
"He is always alone."

This is what I heard of a conversation about me, between 2 neighbours, as I greeted them. Of cause it wasn't a bad hurtful conversation, but I got the feeling it was based on assumption as the neighbours don't know me but are talking about me. As I look at the brief conversation I heard now, it seems as...

It still hurts to be out sometimes. I try to block it out and not dwell on it.You see people, couples young and old. The young are in love and happy and dreaming about their future and the older ones typically have children with them. It hurts you are not one of them and never have been. The first kiss, the first date, starting a family and a new home. It never happened. You hear time and time again that you are young and these things will just happen one day. Well they didn’t and I pretty much...

Just came across an old classmates profile on FB. Felt a bit angry, understanding and questionable. This girl used to make a fuss when the teacher made us sit together by shouting "He is a geek, I don't wanna sit next to him." I'm not lying this happened on more than a few occasions that we sat next to each other. We had a weird relationship. Idk why, but I gave her a Christmas card back in Year 7 or something, I think cause she was "cool" and I wanted her to like me. And towards...

So today I met an friend I hung around with in High School. I was also meant to meet another friend, but he didn't turn up. Our group was known as The Three Musketeers.:d

Prior to meeting my friend I was super anxious as he invited me to a pub and I don't go pubs. I thought that this would probably show the lack of social life I have. Anyways meeting up with this old friend went much better than I thought it would. I forgot to bring ID, just shows that I don't go clubbing or pubs...

It’s been much harder to find success that a lot of the advice I have read advocates. I remember when I was younger at work and the feelings of not being one of them, not one of the crowd, different and weird but most of all extremely disliked. (yes, just like on SAUK!)I felt a quite intense jealousy and even rage when I saw other people going out and enjoying themselves so easily. Even today reading that you should stand up straight and speak in a clear loud voice to overcome SA. I once tried...