ive always felt a little shy but never knew why things have gotten so bad at home that im affraid to go out anywhere all i want is for my parents to see me as an adult but because im hiding away from everything they are sooo angry at me im in despair and lifes dragging me down all i want is to be normal like them and not feel sad annymore

All ive ever wanted is to go abroad, go traveling, im not like my family, I cant just settle down, I need to broaden my horizons, go places, see things.
When I look at it on the pc I get depressed, then I get told not to look at it because its making me sad.
I need the courage to get a job so I can afford to do these things

Ill admit it, my family isnt 'wealthy'
and at the moment im living with my parents, but this SA is always kicking me down, I feel so bad that I dont have a job, I wish I could give them aload of money.
I just feel like a massive burden, a problem child, a slacker

I dont no what was wrong with me last night, I watched a film which turned out to be sad.
It was one of those films that makes you think of growing old and not doing anything with your life, the woman in the film ended up turning bitter towards people because she never did anything.
It really got to me, as soon as it finished I went to bed and I ended up being tearful.
Its so hard to shake it off, im supposed to be trying the TEA form exercise but its hard to write down your...

I hate it when you get days that are boring, watching people walk past your house makes you feel like such a loser, I no its cold and raining outside, but sometimes I want to just walk in it, stroll past people