[B][I]In these shoes every step I take is laced with madness. They fill me with pain and confusion and with thoughts that are not my own[/I][/B]
[B]Moments of Pleasure - Kate Bush[/B]


One of the biggest problems with SA I ever had was learning social skills in the first place. Thats because when people already think of you as weird or strange they avoid you and dont want to know you.You often see advice to keep going out and meeting people and just naturally assuming...

[B][I][SIZE="3"]Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should BURN and RAVE at close of day;
RAGE, RAGE against the dying of the light.[/SIZE][/I][/B]

I went to the cemetery on Monday as it was the 1st anniversary of my mothers death. It brought back a lot of memories( not always good)of past events. If you have known someone almost every day since you were born and then they vanish its bound to have an effect. I keep thinking of her being alive when...

[I][B]Why when there's so many of us are there people still alone?[/I]

Why - Tracy Chapman[/B]

I can walk out my front door right now and pass hundreds of people just going to the city centre and back. The earth is swarming with 7 billion people and growing fast. There are people every where it seems so why is it so f**king hard to find proper friends? Two reasons I think really, maybe, probably. First we as human beings are all extremely judgmental. Even the people...

When anxiety turns steadily in depression it becomes something else entirely. Most of the advice for social anxiety seems to obsess about just getting out more and being in the presence of other people. Learning social skills, general chit chat and exposure, a steady progression onwards and upwards to success.Face your fears and demand they must make you better anyway. When that doesn't work they often then just blame you for not doing enough, after all if this idea doesn't work then there really...

Sometimes it’s almost impossible to put the emotion of the way I have been feeling the last few years down into words. There is an overwhelming sense of loss, fear, inevitability and hopelessness all combined as one. Lost opportunities and chances, longing, yearning and blind faith. I often find myself listening to the same songs over and over, often highly emotional. I found it’s better to keep busy during daytime. If I can survive until evening without feeling desperate I can cope better so I’ve...