It’s been much harder to find success that a lot of the advice I have read advocates. I remember when I was younger at work and the feelings of not being one of them, not one of the crowd, different and weird but most of all extremely disliked. (yes, just like on SAUK!)I felt a quite intense jealousy and even rage when I saw other people going out and enjoying themselves so easily. Even today reading that you should stand up straight and speak in a clear loud voice to overcome SA. I once tried...

Why is it that the social anxiety forums are so youth orientated? One female poster said she felt too old at 30 to use the forum and it often feels like I am entering a student forum and feel embarrassed mentioning my age. Not surprising when there is special sub-forum for the over 30's. It’s the same on blogs or facebook groups with social anxiety being almost always spoken to as if from the point of view of a teenager or someone in their early twenties. Yet there are many people aged 40+ with...

[B][I]But still the warmth flows through me
And I sense you know me well
No luck, no golden chances
No mitigating circumstances now
It's only common sense
[SIZE="3"]There are no accidents around here[/SIZE][/I][/B]

I think a lot of advice is from people who assume that everyone is in exactly the same boat as them just because they all have anxiety when of course everyone is very different and often has vastly different levels of anxiety...

[B][I]Getting hard to believe in anything at all
But Fear.[/I][/B]

I have started to take some pills called 5 HTP. They came from America and took 10 weeks to arrive which makes them sound dodgy. They are supposed to improve moods and have some good reviews although after 4 days I have noticed nothing so far. Perhaps you need to take 10 a day instead of one but they advised you to start slowly and build up so I'll wait and see. Some days my moods could be appallingly bad, so...

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[B]so hard to move on
still loving what's gone[/B]

I went to the cemetery again this afternoon as I did last Christmas day. Its quite surprising how many people do. Not everyone is stuffing themselves with turkey and drunkenly watching TV all afternoon it seems.Despite trying to find things to fill my day the anxiety has increased from when I got home and...