Originally Posted by mhealer3

i already told everybody what i needed 2 tell them &
they couldn't care less.
i don't think think the people in my life are decent people
or they would have aplologized
2 me 4 all the shit they've done 2 me.
apparently i just wasted the last 25 years.
i would like 2 go back in time & tell myself i'm not a loser like my mother told me.

Originally Posted by mhealer3

so true, & i thanku 4 sharing.
myself, i was not liked by my mother, & had 2 pretend it didn't bother me.
also had 2 fend 4 myself with the bullies @ school (for grades7,8 & then @ my highschool it started all over again--for 2 more years)!!
boys tortured me & i just felt like i was burning inside from the terror of going to school.
still, i went 'cause i didn't know i had any options.
college was impossible until i

Originally Posted by mhealer3

lately it's been very upsetting to me when little things go wrong.
i'm sure i'm overreacting. but why do i expect so much?
i don't like being demanding, but i obsess about the details.
how can i stop this?
am i acting the same miserable way that my parents acted toward me?
God, please help me--i don't want to be a nit-picky critical person anymore.
i'm especially hard on myself.
i pray i can learn 2 enjoy