Today has been one of those other Saturdays where I don't get up to that much all day. This follows after a not so good Friday. On Friday, I went for my morning jog, which makes me feel good except I feel I got weird looks from people on the street. My response was to mind read individuals and think that they thought I was weird for wanting to do something as active as jogging in the morning. Now that School has started, I guess the streets are a bit different and busier in the mornings now. Then...

Although it's obvious that Social anxiety is based on subconscious thoughts, today an recruitment session I had just made me so aware of that fact.

As I walked into the workers canteen, the waiting place before the session, I quickly rushed towards the empty table with just one women feeling anxious that the people in the canteen would notice me and maybe laugh or react negatively to me. I don't know rationally I am aware it isn't all about me and no one is perfect however in public...

I saw the BBC documentary on OCD last night. At the beginning they showed that many people on the street think they have OCD just because they like to keep their house neat and tidy or arrange things a certain way. In reality people with chronic OCD are far worse and have their lives completely ruined. Some are even are on the verge of suicide. I could not help compare this with shyness and social anxiety. Everyone is shy at times and most people hate public speaking. Yet social anxiety can be so...

I came across this quote from a book while looking at blogs on social anxiety the other day and it really moved me.It expresses some of the emotions and pain of loneliness into words so truthfully. No matter how much pain isolation creates to talk of your true emotions only pushes people away even more as desperate people are faulty people and faulty people are avoided and ignored.

[B]"It is from that vantage point that I tell you that loneliness itself is the secret. It’s...

In the later years of my job I was considerably better mental health and anxiety wise as I worked in an office with people I got on with. I remember once being asked to go to a summer barbeque by someone I knew quite well and of course declined. There is very little doubt that most of the advice online would have criticised me for avoidant behaviour and taking the easy way out. However as the majority of people there would have been strangers this would have been a nightmare to me which is hard...