How is everyone feeling? (31)

[Sphinx]

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[Toxic]

I always ...lets say.."mock" the women at work coz they always sit there in coats straddling the heaters for about 8 months a year and I don't understand it one bit, I just do not feel the cold

Well..May to Sept...they get their sweet revenge I feel bloody awful in anything above 20 degrees, it was 26 today I was a damp mess melting in the corner!

I feel so drained, I don't want coffee in this weather either and coffee has become about as important to my body as oxygen in the last 10 years! if only I could stand them hipster cold coffee drinks

[Quicksand]

Lol. Last week I realised summer hit and I was like wtf....

Our end it all went a bit weird and wonderful again...but that was the best mum and daughter chat we've had in months. When I was at the upper end of 14 my mum and I werent even speaking. I took her out for a treat at lunchtime today. It went much better than its ever gone before. I'm sorting us out ourselves and I might add family are being useless. I keep trying to call Dad, my sister wanted to meet me today but it really wasnt the best of weeks for us at home and I've learned that if I try and mix with family during these times that's when hot summer arguments kick off.

Anyone I've been speaking to on the phone this week says I'm not angry and in fact smiling a bit more - which is major progress. She's 15 tom and going out with pals but dont tell her I told folk here.

[hellotiger]

I really really need a wee. I'm at the allotment and no way am I going to the shared composting toilet in this heat

[Professor Willow]

Drained, I'm praying for some cooler weather soon!

[hellotiger]

^ Omg I'm mortified. I had to go in the end. As I described to my partner it smelt like someone had peed in a kettle, boiled it, and then I breathed in the pissy steam.

[Indigo_]

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[newbs16]

Originally Posted by hellotiger

^ Omg I'm mortified. I had to go in the end. As I described to my partner it smelt like someone had peed in a kettle, boiled it, and then I breathed in the pissy steam.

wow it sounds terrible.

[Quicksand]

and when family and friends are seen around birthday time handing in presents and cards the bastardly nbors go in yet try to look for a confrontation when i'm out the back. i dinnae think so. first panic attack for two hours this morning in five years. had to go to bed to sort it out.

[Ajax Amsterdam]

Originally Posted by hellotiger

^ Omg I'm mortified. I had to go in the end. As I described to my partner it smelt like someone had peed in a kettle, boiled it, and then I breathed in the pissy steam.

I feel your pain.

Last week I was travelling back from a gig in Bristol via National Express. We got on the Bournemouth to Birmingham coach and it seems the toilet on the coach had been rendered unusable somewhere between Bournemouth and Bristol. There was an iffy smell when we boarded but it was bearable. Anyway, some bright spark decided to take his kid to the loo and opened the door. Oh my god!!! The smell that hit the packed coach was one I cannot describe. People were heaving. It was horrific. I never want to inhale that smell again. Ever!! Only for the driver opening the skylights and putting the aircon blowers on I doubt we'd have completed the trip. I've never been so glad to get off a coach in all my life. The one from Brum to Liverpool was fine, thankfully. I'll never take clean air for granted ever again.

[newbs16]

^^^ How do people manage to leave a toilet in such a terrible unusable condition.

[Ajax Amsterdam]

Originally Posted by newbs16

^^^ How do people manage to leave a toilet in such a terrible unusable condition.

I dread to think. Security threw a guy off when the coach reached Bristol... along with the little that remained of a large bottle of rum and empty cans of strong lager. I can only assume it was his stomach that was a 'bit off' that day. If Satan himself had used the facilities I doubt if he could have made a more putrid stench even if he'd been out on the curry the previous night.

On a lighter note, and coming right back on topic... I'm feeling pretty good because of the lovely weather. I know many don't like it, but I'm a Summer lover myself. Mind you, they forecast thunderstorms in the morning. I like them too, though. Well, just so long as the lightning doesn't come too close.

[newbs16]

^ I would imagine the heat probably didn't help,maybe the toilet wasn't working correctly or it was blocked with too much toilet roll. Surely that's the whole point of having a toilet on a coach incase you needed to go.

Your curry comment made me smile, I'm pleased that you're having a nice time enjoying the lovely weather. Did you enjoy the gig?

[Clementine]

I just realised I was feeling the tiniest spark of hope for the first time in months and now I'm in floods of tears. I came so close to dying and couldn't even begin to imagine myself ever feeling any better again. There are entire months that I can't even remember, only that they were the darkest of my whole life. I never knew that being that low was possible and I never thought I could escape from it.
I still have a very long way to go but I'm starting to see light again and can't even describe how much that means.

I really want to thank everyone here who has shown me such patience and kindness. I'm truly grateful.

[Merritt]

^ I'm so glad you're starting to feel hopeful again You went through the darkest time of your life and survived, try to hold on to that and remember how strong you are.

[Oddity]

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^ That's some rotten luck

[Clementine]

Thank you all

^^ Aww no that sucks Hope you feel better very soon, look after yourself x

[Ajax Amsterdam]

Originally Posted by newbs16

Your curry comment made me smile, I'm pleased that you're having a nice time enjoying the lovely weather. Did you enjoy the gig?

I did enjoy the gig, thanks. It was brilliant, and so was Bristol. Loved the entire experience.

@Clementine. Glad you are feeling better. Keep up the good work and keep following that light.

[Clementine]

Thanks, Ajax

[Quicksand]

ty beagle thats kind. i tried being up from 9am today and in the town - it seemed to go better. i got my friend to meet me when i could feel the panic setting in. got back around 2pm knowing my kid is out having fun with pals on her 15th birthday in the big wide city with her auntie in the background if things go a bit wonky but i dont think they will. Phewie.

I wonder if its possible to change 15 years ingrained negative thinking about being out and about in the world?

[Mo34]

Tired. Got up at the bleeding crack of dawn to go down and get some cash for van men (I forgot yesterday ) Did they show up? did they heck. Phoned the main number no answer, phoned the mobile number and left a voicemail. Got a phonecall about 12.40pm and it was the van company. No knowledge of my booking. I explained I did it via email and not by phone etc.. anyhoo he came out anyways by himself and told me that there must have been a mix up cause when he checked they'd booked me for the 27th of June .
I decided to have a bit of a wobble sa wise at the storage place, cause I have no idea what I'm doing. (storage etc is all new to me). Managed to get through it tho. Not helped by all the anxiety of waiting all morning for a non existent van.
Still the upside is he only changed me £30. (was gonna be about £75)

[Clementine]

A bit strange. I keep feeling like the room is spinning and I'm going to pass out.

[kirbycrackle]

Tired. My nephew woke me up very early and as he had the bed I spent the night stuck to the sofa like a fried egg with only a couple of hours sleep. I hate feeling this crap my moods plummet.

[Clementine]

Thanks, Jinny. I think it's probably because I'm anaemic, I'm getting all sorts of odd symptoms lately.
Hope you feel better soon too.

And you, Animal Mother.

[Quicksand]

Same Duality - i'm getting out of here if i can. everyone that's known about it has switched off. which i dont blame them for but thats a crappy position to be in emotionally. 15 years this house June 16. really concerned i wont manage breaking the building's apron strings. its almost like its kept me prisoner. sigh.

[purplerose]

Originally Posted by Clementine

A bit strange. I keep feeling like the room is spinning and I'm going to pass out.

I was going to say could it maybe have anything to do with the heat ? I can feel a bit light headed and dizzy when its really warm.
Hope you feel better soon

[Clementine]

^ Yeah the heat probably doesn't help actually, thank you

[Gomen]

Had a tough day its just no letup. Wanna cry my guts out but if I do ill get petechiae under my eyes. I'm hoping I can get a ride to the worship place tomorrow and don't wont people there to see that.

[Pandapop]

Knackered but feeling amazing.

Woke up at half 7 and have already cycled 40 miles today now I'm just laying in my own sweat not wanting to move at all

I need my roast dinner nooooooow, nomnom

[Mr. Nobody]

^
40 miles, - that's pretty awesome, well done pandapop