How is everyone feeling? (31) - Page 739

Toxic · #**22141** 15th February 2021, 19:53

^ Thanks

I actually have no idea who my consultant will be

I went private but he bounced me back to the NHS as he didnt think anything that might be going on would be particularly urgent. So who knows who's got me now! I have no names on the appointment..just turn up here for your heart and aorta scan with contrast!

I had that with my last blood test 3-4 years ago - We will get in touch if theres any problems! - they still havent

Thought I'd edit since it was the last post

I'm back from it, I've decided I dislike cannulas, the other person in the room was a student and seemed terrified to clip the dye thing up to my arm, I couldn't understand them very well probably due to masks and right before they started the donut spinning they pulled me back out and put the ECG wires on me too before sticking me back in. The warm feeling from the dye is weird though!

Tubbs · #**22142** 16th February 2021, 14:54

Thanks for everyone's kind support a few posts back. X

Mr. Nobody · #**22143** 18th February 2021, 13:15

feeling SO much better now that we are actually getting a bit of sun now,
it's light when I'm driving to work, and still light when I'm driving home,

plus,..all the horrible -10c type temperatures are gone too,
I'm slowly beginning to thaw out from the worst of the Winter

long may this continue,

limey123 · #**22144** 18th February 2021, 17:11

^ I hear ya. I've been working nightshift the last 6 weeks and have seen practically no daylight at all. During this period, my mental health has nosedived. You don't realise always just how important the Sun is until you stop seeing it for long...

Seagull · #**22145** 18th February 2021, 21:06

^ Do you ever get post-night shift headaches, Limey, when you wake up from daytime sleep?

Tembo · #**22146** 21st February 2021, 19:57

Really struggling to find any motivation at all, especially with going in to work tomorrow.

It is frustrating how there is no way to build on or sustain my progress. My mental health is worsening, and my communication skills are like being my 13 year old self again when at work or when talking to shop staff. Sadly it isn’t like riding a bike, and there is seemingly nothing I can do to improve it, and potentially not for most of this year ahead either. I’m going backwards and it feels scary.

limey123 · #**22147** 21st February 2021, 22:32

Sad. My uncle died of COVID in a care home last night. I never had the chance to visit him. He was a lovely man, the world is now a worse place.

anxiouslondoner · #**22148** 21st February 2021, 22:38

^ sorry for your loss.

Oddity · #**22149** 21st February 2021, 22:48

^^ So sorry to hear that

I lost my neighbour last year to covid, such a lovely guy.

Percy · #**22150** 22nd February 2021, 01:30

Sorry to hear that limey123

Consolida · #**22151** 22nd February 2021, 07:00

@ limey - I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle

I've been feeling horrendous physically and mentally.

Every bone in my body aches to the point that I am taking painkillers daily. It's pointless going to see the GP because I'm certain they will dismiss my symptoms as being anxiety related and just part and parcel of being a middle aged neurotic woman.

I'm feeling so stressed out about my adoptive mum who has finally started chemotherapy for her terminal cancer and illness and dying is never far from my thoughts. I've started having very bad nightmares.

Also I'm struggling again emotionally after speaking on the phone for the first time with a biological half brother. He suffered a truly horrendous childhood because of our evil birth mother. However, like all of my other birth siblings, he is sociable and gregarious. It's only my life that has been blighted by the dreaded social anxiety which is leaving me with the thought that it must have been nurture rather than nature.

On top of it all, the Pandemic with its lockdowns and lack of social interaction has set me back years. It's a struggle to leave the house.

Apart from that, everything in life is positively hunky dory.

firemonkey · #**22152** 22nd February 2021, 08:25

That attempting to be social is a waste of time. That a combination of ASD + schizophrenia totally scuppers you on that front.

Mr. Nobody · #**22153** 22nd February 2021, 14:16

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Originally Posted by limey123

Sad. My uncle died of COVID in a care home last night. I never had the chance to visit him. He was a lovely man, the world is now a worse place.

that's horrible,. sad to hear that limey

it is so sad,. the number of our older relatives that are dying of Covid and other causes in care homes up and down the country just now.

my Mum passed away a few months ago and I hadn't been able to visit since last March,

my g/f's uncle just passed away a fortnight ago, he was an amazing old guy,. but hadn't been able to visit him since last April.

it's just the thought of how miserable their last few months had been for them,
plus, the nagging thought of whether the lack of physical support through visiting had any contributing effect on their health.

limey123 · #**22154** 22nd February 2021, 16:12

Thanks, everyone, for your kind wishes.

@Consolida: great to see you, you were missed. But so sorry you're going through hell

try tackling one problem at a time, otherwise you will continue to feel overwhelmed? Start with your health as that's most important. Sending you BIG HUGS

@Mr Nobody: very sorry to hear about your mum, and that you hadn't been able to see her

( That's so sad.
Yeah, I think the same, not having seen their loved ones for so long must have been devastating. I'm pretty sure my uncle went to his grave basically feeling abandoned, as he didn't understand the thing with lockdowns. It's such a dreadful thought, I can't bear to think about it.

Consolida · #**22155** 22nd February 2021, 18:05

@ Nanuq, thank you so much for your kind words x I'm so sorry that you're continuing to have such a tough time due to the virus

@ Limey, thank you for your kind words. I've really missed the lovely folk on here but wish it wasn't only when I'm feeling so utterly miserable that I come here!

@ Mr Nobody, I'm so sorry about your mum

This Pandemic has had such a devastating effect on everyone

Percy · #**22156** 22nd February 2021, 18:20

Consolida's back *boundds around the room like an over exited thing*

Moksha · #**22157** 22nd February 2021, 18:37

Weirdly depressed that we're heading out of lockdown. This pandemic has really brought home to me just how odd and disconnected I truly am. I've enjoyed the peace and quiet. I've also loved having an excuse not to socialize or, basically, do anything. The thought of roads clogged with traffic, and all the noise and greed and chaos of life starting up again, plus the summer heat...ugghh

. People can't wait to get back to pubs and parties and open plan offices and busy shopping centres, etc. I don't feel that way at all. I haven't missed anything. I'm sure I have some kind of depressive/avoidant personality. And I'm sure I was born this way. I don't think I've ever liked being alive much.

Merritt · #**22158** 22nd February 2021, 22:14

I'm sorry for your loss, Limey & Mr. Nobody

And sorry for everyone who's struggling at the moment.

Finding some of the glee I'm seeing around on Twitter and the like about everywhere opening up again in the not-too-distant future a bit painful. I totally get that it's a good thing, and no one's in the wrong for being happy about it, but it reminds me that I genuinely have nothing to look forward to. There's nothing good in my future, just a sort of endless personal lockdown experience.

choirgirl · #**22159** 22nd February 2021, 23:45

Consolida - lovely to see you back, and sorry to hear that.

Mr Nobody and Limey - that is so sad, I'm sorry. It is hard to think of people not being able visit in those last months.

Nanuq - I really hope they'll start paying attention to what they can do about long Covid once the situation is less acute.

Consolida · #**22160** 23rd February 2021, 02:08

^ Thank you Choirgirl

Quote:

Originally Posted by Percy

Consolida's back *boundds around the room like an over exited thing*

You are obviously very easily excited Percy but thank you all the same

x

@ Moksha and Merritt - I totally get what you mean about dreading the prospect of life getting back to 'normal'. While there's no denying this Pandemic has been truly awful, it's given us SA folk the perfect excuse not to do the things that cause us so much anxiety. I've spent the best part of a year holed up in my bedroom and no one has batted an eyelid. For once in our lives avoiding social interaction has been positively encouraged and applauded on a global scale. The lives we've been shamefully (in our eyes) been living for years was suddenly normal and socially acceptable. I fear that coming out of lockdown and attempting to rejoin society is going to be an incredibly painful experience

@ indignant misanthrope - your neighbours sound absolutely horrible. I hope there will soon be a resolution to the situation so that you can get on with living where you do in peace. No one should be continuously bullied and harassed

Percy · #**22161** 23rd February 2021, 02:37

^You're very welcome young lady

girlinterrupted · #**22162** 23rd February 2021, 04:08

@Consolida Nice to see you back!

Toxic · #**22163** 23rd February 2021, 10:50

God damn

I sent my doctors an e-consult thing basically asking for some medication so I wouldn't have to go see them

End result is I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon for bloods/thyroid check/general prodding and poking.......and no medication

That has not gone to plan. Sheeting myself

Toxic · #**22164** 23rd February 2021, 12:37

^ I'm going to ask them to attack my other arm

my left arm still feels rough from the cannula I had after the CT scan last week! (which I'm completely avoiding and hope I never get the results)

I specifically picked the options that meant I didn't want to go visit a doctor

Getting real bored of all this now, its like 4 months of convincing myself I need to plan my funeral songs for the 2 people that will turn up - You should get a medal for dealing with long covid - I'd be a right mess

Consolida · #**22165** 23rd February 2021, 14:23

^ Good luck with your Doctors appointment tomorrow Toxic

Quote:

Originally Posted by girlinterrupted

@Consolida Nice to see you back!

Thank you

I hope you are keeping well?

Tembo · #**22166** 23rd February 2021, 20:00

My goodness that has to be one of my worst days at work. Everything that could go wrong seemingly went wrong. My car door flung open when I was driving. I upset someone. I did something massively wrong. Then after a hugely stressful few hours, I went for a break but then water started coming through the ceiling and there was a huge leak, and I don't do well in a crisis so I got in the way and pissed people off. Oh, and my shoes have fallen apart

I want to scream, punch a wall, hide in my bed and have some vodka (but sadly I've run out of the stuff, although that's probably a good thing).

hellotiger · #**22167** 23rd February 2021, 20:47

^What a shitty day. Sorry Aleks, hopefully tomorrow is a better one for you.

Tembo · #**22168** 23rd February 2021, 21:30

Quote:

Originally Posted by hellotiger

^What a shitty day. Sorry Aleks, hopefully tomorrow is a better one for you.

Thank you! I’m sure it will, as that’s probably my monthly quota of shitty things

choirgirl · #**22169** 24th February 2021, 13:13

I'm really struggling to focus on getting things done. I've been struggling to focus all year. I struggle anyway, but it's worse than usual.

However, I have enjoyed the discussion of topics that don't usually get discussed in the media, like struggling to focus while working from home, loneliness, anxiety etc, because the answer can't be 'just get out more'.

Toxic · #**22170** 24th February 2021, 15:41

@Consolida

Ta!

I've been stabbed in the arm and prodded and poked all round my neck by 2 female doctors - I'm sure some folk would pay for that.

Now to spend the next couple of days freaking out about my blood tests

. If I'm anything I'm predictable. I did sort of hope they would have my CT scan results however they have heard sod all - who knows where thats ended up!