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Old 30th May 2022, 14:27
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They don't want me here , I heard them say they want me out asap. well tbh I don't want to be here... it's crazy! thanks quietman, I don't think anyone can do much I have just got to sort myself out and not rely on others.
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Old 30th May 2022, 15:59
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said snap out of your depression, and stop pushing your family away.
I hate when people say that, as if we could just snap out of it.
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Old 30th May 2022, 19:49
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I know, he doesn't understand mental health.
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Old 31st May 2022, 14:07
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Feeling really ill again, I wish I had the courage then I could be gone from all this.
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Old 31st May 2022, 14:23
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^ I'm so sorry you're having to suffer this pain and I hope that in time you will start to heal and will experience some good times again Quietman
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Old 31st May 2022, 14:43
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^ I could do it now and no one would really care, stay strong Consolida.
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Old 31st May 2022, 17:12
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^ Well, I think there are people that would care very much but some of them are rubbish at showing that they care or offering support until it's sadly too late

You stay strong too
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Old 31st May 2022, 19:39
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I seem to just piss my family off, my work colleagues and my few remaining friends. Honestly, what is the point of carrying on? I’m just a ****, end of.

I’m so cynical about this shithole we happen to live in. Don’t see the point of it at all.
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Old 31st May 2022, 19:44
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^ Hope you feel better soon Tembo, I'm on the verge of leaving this horrible world nothing seems worth it anymore. Hang in there Tembo thing's will improve for you im sure.
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Old 31st May 2022, 23:07
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thank you Quietman. I feel bad for my outburst there. I’m a little calmer now.

Quietman, I know you’ve been through an awful lot recently. All I can say is hang in there too. I do hope you will get through this and get to feel some positivity in the future. Things can change.
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Old 1st June 2022, 04:08
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Tembo that's what this place is for to open up about what's going on for you, don't feel bad about it.

I'm quite scared of this hospital I'm in now - I want out asap. They asked if I want leave on my own so that's a step forward to getting out soon.. got told to go to my room cos its too dangerous in corridor, feel bad for staff. I still don't want to live but I'm going to try and be positive from now on, i don't want them to know that my mental health isn't good - they aren't that sympathetic here anyway heard them sat in office laughing at the women who was shouting.
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Old 1st June 2022, 11:58
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Went to cut my arm haven't done that for years, feeling really down, again I think soon is the time, I feel bad about typing it on here but if I did't have a place to vent I would be more likely to do it without thinking. Its not just my mom its that gene test, my dads illness all on top of the other.
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Old 1st June 2022, 13:52
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^ I'm so sorry that you are going through so much on your own and I wish that there was something that I could say or do to help
Please don't feel bad about venting here. I vent here all the time and often feel embarrassed when I see my late night posts in the cold light of day but ah well, it is a mental health support forum after all!

Isn't there a chance that the test results will come back to say that you don't have the gene? Either way, you really should be receiving professional support for all that you are coping with at the moment. Everyone, including myself, says reach out for support but where the heck is it

Please keep posting, Quietman, or I for one shall start to worry
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Old 1st June 2022, 16:47
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I seem to just piss my family off, my work colleagues and my few remaining friends. Honestly, what is the point of carrying on? I’m just a ****, end of.

I’m so cynical about this shithole we happen to live in. Don’t see the point of it at all.
Sorry to hear you're feeling bad Tembo, chin up.
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Old 1st June 2022, 22:39
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I can't do this anymore
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Old 2nd June 2022, 00:04
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Old 2nd June 2022, 00:17
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Thanks dougella
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Old 2nd June 2022, 19:05
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Feeling really suicidal again nights are the worst, I can’t watch tv because my OCD brain goes into overdrive.
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Old 2nd June 2022, 19:25
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sorry quietman, i can't watch TV either, it's hard to concentrate when you feel so low.. sorry I'm not much help just know i'm thinking of you and I hope you feel better soon
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Old 2nd June 2022, 20:45
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Sorry to hear you're feeling bad Tembo, chin up.
Thank you Percy, means a lot. I feel a bit better at the moment.

Mellie, sorry to hear you are feeling bad. Hope you feel a bit better soon. Please continue to update us.
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Old 2nd June 2022, 21:09
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^Glad your feeling a bit better Tembo, been thinking of you.

Also thanks Mellie.
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Old 2nd June 2022, 21:18
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^ Sorry to hear of your mom Crafty Elf my mom had the same problem to just before she died, I would buy her a magazine or book and she said I’ve already read them, and then you would put the tv on and she would say I’ve seen it before, it’s a shame. Don’t give up Crafty Elf I no I’m one to talk but stay strong.

I do enjoy listening to records, I find that the music from the 60’s onwards to be a lot better than today’s music.
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Old 2nd June 2022, 22:54
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^ I really hope that you find something in this world that makes you want to continue living Crafty Elf. It makes me feel so sad to hear you say that you might only have one more Christmas. If I was rich I'd buy you a lovely house in a beautiful peaceful place so that you might want to stick around for longer
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Old 3rd June 2022, 02:17
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^ you come across as a pleasant, funny person, with plenty to offer the world and other people. I'm sorry you're feeling this way.
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Old 3rd June 2022, 20:43
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^^ Agree with the others. It makes me so sad to read your posts Crafty Elf. Surely it's worth sticking around, isn't it? You seem such a funny, kind, likeable person.
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Old 3rd June 2022, 20:48
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^^ Crafy-Elf are you worried that your mother's health is declining and that's making you think that you don't want to stay around much longer, if it's ok to ask?
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Old 3rd June 2022, 21:22
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^ I feel the same, can't wait to go theres nothing in life that interests me anymore, I'm trying to get the courage and the right means but im confident in the end I will be able to do it.

I hope you and your mom are around for many more years Crafty Elf, and that you get to enjoy many more christmases to come.
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Old 3rd June 2022, 23:41
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I'm sure your Mum is very glad to have you around to help her Crafty*Elf but I do hope you and she and Prinny are around for a couple more Christmases.
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Old 6th June 2022, 11:40
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Struggling again can't get into the doctors until next Monday and my medication is being changed so I can't have any, it's hard to keep going I can't imagine getting through the rest of today let alone another week I just want to say goodbye to the world.
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Old 6th June 2022, 11:43
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^ Do you still have any of your current medication left? Just try and take things a day at a time, or an hour at a time if you need to. Do things that can distract you a bit, or help you feel a little better.
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