Type what you're thinking about right now (11)

[newbs16]

Whether my period will arrive a week early.

[flumpsy]

oops sorry biscuits, I ruined your carets

[Pandapop]

George A. Romero

Dawn of the Dead was the start of my zombie obsession.

[Merritt]

Aww The original Dead trilogy means so much to me. The Land/Diary/Survival films were gash, but I have such an enduring love for the first three, they're like my Star Wars.

[Pandapop]

Same He influenced my taste in films strongly.
Going to have to watch them again.

[Pablo Huntsbach]

Even though I've got less to complain about than I used to some things never change. 3 years ago I was barely clinging on to a job that caused more stress than was justified by the pay. Now I'm on an artificially inflated salery but it still doesn't seem worth it, and I have to worry about being literally and emotionally available to someone else. I actually don't know how to get a job. Every one I've ever had I stumbled into and took out of desperation. The other half constantly talks about moving in together but that means getting a job closer and so far I've had one interview and nobody is interested. She's amazing and patient but it can't last.

[Creamy Goodness]

Originally Posted by Clementine

Thanks.
I know there could be good things around the corner. I also know that even if they were amazing things I'd still destroy everything. It's what always happens, it's all that this illness does and I'll never be free of it. I can't ever see things clearly or know what's real. Nobody can love me because even I don't know who the hell I am. My life is just pointless loneliness, self hatred, paranoia and pain and I'm tired of hurting and feeling that everyone despises or is laughing at me. I don't want to carry on but I'm trapped in it.

I **** up all the good thing that happen to me too, but I just try and learn from my mistakes and add it all to life experience, so I won't **** it all up again. The rest of what you're saying is bollocks! Loads of people could and probably do love you. You must know you're being ridiculously hard on yourself!?

[newbs16]

Originally Posted by Pablo Huntsbach

Even though I've got less to complain about than I used to some things never change. 3 years ago I was barely clinging on to a job that caused more stress than was justified by the pay. Now I'm on an artificially inflated salery but it still doesn't seem worth it, and I have to worry about being literally and emotionally available to someone else. I actually don't know how to get a job. Every one I've ever had I stumbled into and took out of desperation. The other half constantly talks about moving in together but that means getting a job closer and so far I've had one interview and nobody is interested. She's amazing and patient but it can't last.

What do you mean you worry about being literally and emotionally available to someone else. I'm pleased you're happy in your life, you just need to find more suitable employment.

[Clementine]

Originally Posted by Creamy Goodness

I **** up all the good thing that happen to me too, but I just try and learn from my mistakes and add it all to life experience, so I won't **** it all up again. The rest of what you're saying is bollocks! Loads of people could and probably do love you. You must know you're being ridiculously hard on yourself!?

I'll stop being mentally ill

[Mental Elf]

Have such a headache right now maybe from thinking to much, like always.

[Rianne]

Creamy, I think your comments may have been well intentioned but they were VERY harsh. We're all fighting battles that seem ludicrous to other people but they are incredibly real for us.
Hopefully your current mood will lift Clementine and you will see things from a different viewpoint but it takes time and compassion from yourself, and from others.

[Pandapop]

Looking forward to hiking more this week and taking the bikes this time

[girlinterrupted]

Sleep,death,life,the in-betweeny stuff,the usual.

[Omar Little]

The cat just brought me a dead sparrow it had killed.

He was sitting at the bottom of the stairs, held held high, gesturing towards the small, dead sparrow on the carpet next to him.

I felt bad for the sparrow, but at the same time I felt love for the cat. I mean, when a cat brings you a small, dead animal they've killed, it is a 'gift' for you, a sign of their affection and appreciation towards you. So it's like, "Aw, boy. You're saying you love me, but the poor frigging bird."

Also, picking up a dead bird is so icky. You'd think I'd be used to it after the nine I picked up last year that had fallen/been kicked out of their nests. Would have been ten if I'd listened to my next door neighbour, who saw the female blackbird lying on its back unconscious and panting on the floor outside my window (it had flown into it) and said, "Ah, just leave it, a cat'll get it." Heartless bastard, it was only knocked out.

[flumpsy]

^ Our cat used to do the same but because of the panic caused when she brought them in the house she learnt to leave them on the doorstep. Not good when you step out into the garden early morning bare feet to go and play and right into a relatively fresh dead bird or mouse.

Our other cat was so cute, she learned we didnt like it so started working her way down to things we didnt mind so much, she wanted to get us the perfect gift. It turned out to be worms. We would see her through the patio door meowing to come in with a worm hanging in her mouth, crying with laughter we would let her in and take it off her giving her praise. They were always live too so we just flung them over the fence when she wasnt looking. She brought us twigs and broken flowers too.

[Dougella]

^^ Aw, a lovely present for you

[Omar Little]

^^Maybe she just wanted you to take her fishing. A fish is what she really wanted.

But, yeah, you do feel the need to praise them. My last cat wasn't a hunter, so this is a new thing for me.

^It's always nice to get a present, but I'd have preferred money. Or a WHSmith voucher.

[Dougella]

^ Maybe he'll work up to that

My Mum's formally feral cat actually brought in a dead bird for the first time last week. She looked so proud with feathers still in her mouth. Actually the turning point of her becoming less feral was when she brought my Mum a dead mouse to the back door.

[flumpsy]

^^ wow, she is even more clever than I thought ! That may be how the tackle, rod, book on float fishing and the 4x4 also got left outside the back door. I never put 2 and 2 together.

[Silent Ninja]

I've got all this week off, it's only Tuesday and I'm already thinking about work next week

[Ronnie_Pickering]

Walkers never had BBQ flavour did they? BBQ flavour one of the best.

[Mo34]

Hmm the weather is definitely darkening here, I do love a good thunder storm

[Rocket Spud]

Bournemouth is taking a battering atm.

Our dog has a worried look about her, she knows it's coming :/

[Mo34]

^
Is it? I must try and google a lightening map...

Yeah, my dog used to seem to know and also shake during storms. I take it she's not good with thunder?

[Rocket Spud]

She hates it - she's panting now and i've yet to hear a rumble.

The winds been 'up' for over an hour, the air feels charged, primed for some action.

[Mo34]

Aw bless

Yeah same here.

[Rocket Spud]

.. Well, it changed direction and went to Basingstoke instead

[flumpsy]

I am thinking about a chicken and mushroom (peters) totally soaked in malt vinegar some chunky proper fish shop chips covered in salt and half a can of cold beans on the side.

I will be thinking about this for a while.

[Mo34]

^Not sure about the rest but God I could go the chip shop chips

^^ Yeah I think it'll miss here too, tho it's very dark. Mind you looking at the floods in Cornwall on the news, can't say i'm sorry.

[flumpsy]

Cold beans and hot chips is one of the world wonders. It shouldnt work but it so does !!