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Gosh I'm glad your daughter is okay Indigo. That must be very hard.
Wonder if you can ask for the bench back, Consolida? Consider it the SA challenge of the week! Well, I'm used to being gay now, (about time!) but I have a long way to go to be a well adjusted gay. |
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Thank you for the well wishes
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Lucozade.
I remember when I was little Lucozade was reserved for when someone in the house was poorly and even then it was only drunk sparingly. Now it's everywhere and people drink it like water. |
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Some people need a place where they can yell and scream into the void without being treated as weird for it. Just to try to get the built up anger and pain out of their system.
I'm thinking literally here, it could be a mental health facility. Just go in and yell against all the insanity, and then put your fake normal happy face back on and walk out and nobody says anything. No judgement. The biggest crime of society is pretending that everything is fine. |
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^ From what I've seen, those places are called the post office.
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I don't know, it was 5:20 in the morning, just whatever was going through my brain. Don't pay much attention.
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Through my whole experience of landing a new job and having some of the worst mental breakdowns I've ever experienced, I begun to think that I actually may have CPTSD.
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^ It sounds like you may have pinpointed some behaviour from your father there (which does sound like emotional abuse) that could well have led to you developing CPTSD. It's good to be able to work out what may be going on when we're having problems
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Sorry to hear about your troubles Spectral Owls
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How warm it is for the middle of November
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I've said it before and i'll say it again. I HATE GARDENING
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Thinking about chocolate. I went to the shop earlier, should've got some
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humans are social animals. The biggest form of madness is people distanced at home. With the right socialisation humans flourish. The wrong socialisation slightly counterproductive.
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Is Tesla influenced by Ford. Model Y, Model S. It's reminiscent to early Ford model naming. Teslas actually remind me of Mondeo, I don't think they look the most attractive or luxury.
But I also think the 2020's luxury fad isn't about being luxury, I would say the 10's and 00's images of luxury were probably more based on luxuriousness. It's like 2020's image of luxury is more based on the amount of smart tech and sustainability a product can have. I'm sure it will change soon though. |
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Just wanted to say thanks for listening to my venting, and thanks for the advice too. I always appreciate it, and it's why I feel like this forum is so grounding for me.
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do I bother applying to an agency that have rejected me about 10 times? By this stage its trauma. Apply, they make up some excuse how I'm not the right person. And all this with my own self doubts. Some companies really are (*&(*&
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I know a certain person is an ass hole so why do I still feel shocked when they behave like one?
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^ Just when I thought my week couldn't get any worse.
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Soon everyone will have "do not quote" on their posts, and no-one will be able to respond to anyone else. The logical terminus of a social anxiety discussion board I suppose.
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We could get all anarchic and start pointing
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My job. I've progressed from thinking it's tolerable to hating it. Plus I get the feeling my colleagues are starting to hate me a bit. I've got no evidence of that, but it's just my intuition. And I'm fed up of all the pointless meetings I have to attend.
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How direct debits and subscriptions creepily can cost you a lot. You can even forget you are paying for something. Was just looking at my banking app. I feel I avoid it because although it's painless to buy stuff, it's painful to look at how much I might be spending that I have liked to keep this out of mind.
I need to learn more about money. I feel we have more tools to be financially aware, especially because banks are digital, but wonder if older people are generally smarter with their finances because the subscription model, automated payments, weren't as common with them as they us with people in their 20s-40s now? |