What I did today - for small achievements and cheers

[Dean Winchester]

^ Going to that meeting was a big step, and it sounds like something really positive came of it for you even though it was, as you say, exhausting (4 hours is a long time!) It sounds like it was a really supportive, connected space for all of you to discuss something very difficult and not widely understood - you should feel massively proud of yourself for going along

[biscuits]

^^ aw humphrey, that has brought tears to my eyes. It sounds like a really special moment that you had with other people who have experienced a similar loss as you. It's lovely that you've found the group. Feeling alone for so long with all that you have experienced...it must have been really special to make those empathetic connections

Are their plans to meet up with them again?

[humphrey]

^ Their is another meeting in September, in Edinburgh I am thinking about driving up to that one.

It is good to know that I am not the only freak in village! It is good to know that what I have spent all my life feeling, is normal for us lone twins.

[AireleeBray]

I cannot believe I actually did this, I stood up to my boss about something very concerning/wrong that everyone was complaining about but noone else had the guts to say something.
I knew it was the right thing to do but I felt so sick & was shaking all day & usually I cry but this time something switched & I think I did well.

It was very awkward & my boss was very defensive at first but I think it ended ok.

[R.H.I.N.O.]

Well done AireleeBray.

I have had situations like that in my life, where something needed to be said, but no one would say it, so I took it upon myself to do so. I was nervous as hell but my sense of injustice overcame my fear and anxiety.

Most times they ended amicably.

[Rocket Spud]

Good one, AireleeBray!

[biscuits]

Aw excellent, Aireleebray!

Well done for sticking up for yourself

I bet you're the staffroom hero

[Amara 94]

Yesterday at work idk if it was because I wasn’t speaking loud enough but I wasn’t able to pronounce rice as I find it hard to pronounce the letter r. The chefs took notice of this but I didn’t beat myself up for this.

I feel things like this have added to my anxiety, but then it doesn’t define me or make me less than. I wonder, this might sound silly, if having a haircut helped with that as it made my speech impediment seem like a smaller part of me than it usually would. In college I think one sociology teacher noticed this and probably used this to stop me from contributing in class.

When I have a haircut it seems like people are nicer to me, but then that creates anxiety because it makes the situation feel fake. I’ve concluded I also should try to define myself less by my appearance and judge others less by their appearance.

[Amara 94]

Originally Posted by AireleeBray

I cannot believe I actually did this, I stood up to my boss about something very concerning/wrong that everyone was complaining about but noone else had the guts to say something.
I knew it was the right thing to do but I felt so sick & was shaking all day & usually I cry but this time something switched & I think I did well.

It was very awkward & my boss was very defensive at first but I think it ended ok.

Well done 👍🏾

[Amara 94]

Has my first full body massage. It was tickly, apparently i have a lot of stiffness built up and should go to get more massages.

[Rocket Spud]

^ I'd love a massage. Or to give one.


Cut my hair. Looks good. Happy Rocket.

[Amara 94]

^ haircuts make me feel fresher

[Amara 94]

Booked a ticket to ride the heritage 1938 tube stock in September. This would probably trigger my anxiety and I’m most situations I am embarrassed to admit my interest in trains. It sounds silly but I was told it was weird to like trains as a kid or was shown that it was words and did think it was weird that from Year 5 or so I suppressed that interest in front of most people.

[anxiouslondoner]

^ there's nothing wrong with liking trains! Most people's hobbies make no sense when you over-analyse them, but some have popularity on their side.

I hope you enjoy your trip. Where is it?

(I'm more of a fan of stations and the railways themselves - railways strike me as strange places because you go through them but you're never really 'there')

[biscuits]

Aw that sounds really cool!

I like to ride on a steam train.

I'd love to go to this postal museum and have ride: https://www.postalmuseum.org/visit-u...ect/mail-rail/

[genovese]

Trains are great.
Steam trains especially. The chug chug choo choo is one of the best sounds.
Stations are also wonderful. Abandoned, disused stations are pure excitement. The disused London tube stations are fascinating - the original fixtures, the advert posters of the day still on the walls... it's like stepping back in time without a flux capacitor in sight.

[Amara 94]

Originally Posted by biscuits

Aw that sounds really cool!

I like to ride on a steam train.

I'd love to go to this postal museum and have ride: https://www.postalmuseum.org/visit-u...ect/mail-rail/

Apparently these were £150 a ticket I read in the video page

https://youtu.be/H1uqG3Eq_fg

[Amara 94]

Originally Posted by anxiouslondoner

^ there's nothing wrong with liking trains! Most people's hobbies make no sense when you over-analyse them, but some have popularity on their side.

I hope you enjoy your trip. Where is it?

(I'm more of a fan of stations and the railways themselves - railways strike me as strange places because you go through them but you're never really 'there')

Amersham to Harrow and back on the Metropolitan Line.

[biscuits]

Originally Posted by Alone.

Apparently these were £150 a ticket I read in the video page

https://youtu.be/H1uqG3Eq_fg

That made me wol (whistle out loud)

Out of London it's not that expensive. I've been on a few and in Wales as well :D

When I was at primary school we used to go as a school to see Father Christmas on a steam train. I was petrified of the big fella - always refused to sit on his knee

[BFG_]

^wise choice he was probably a paedo

[Mr. Nobody]

I was up dancing several times in a nightclub the other night,

Definitely not something I'd ever do really, so I'm rather chuffed (and astonished) about that,

It's surprisingly easy once you get started

[Amara 94]

Not a big deal to some but tidied my room a bit. I feel accountability is the solution to my problems but the first step seems to be having things in order.

[biscuits]

^^ nice one, Mr Nobody! Dancing is a lot of fun :D



^ things do feel calmer in a calm environment, which sounds silly to say now I've typed it out - but it's true! I struggle to keep things organised and actually find it stressful to do so. So I get how doing that is an achievement it is

[Amara 94]

Originally Posted by Mr. Nobody

I was up dancing several times in a nightclub the other night,

Definitely not something I'd ever do really, so I'm rather chuffed (and astonished) about that,

It's surprisingly easy once you get started

That’s good Mr Nobody

[Merritt]

I travelled to go see my favourite band and stay at a hotel by myself, this week. I kept feeling like I was making a tit of myself whenever I had to interact with anyone, and I felt a bit like throwing up until I got settled at the gig, but otherwise I got through it OK.

I was kind of disappointed at how emotionally flat I felt though. I'm struggling a bit not to feel disheartened about how even when I make the effort to do something difficult, there isn't much of a feel-good payoff. It was an OK experience, which I guess is at least better than a horrible panic-fest.

[Rocket Spud]

Nice one, Merritt!

I think you have to be realistic. One event isn't going to shake things up too much. Feeling good about things is something that comes eventually after many efforts. It is a good foundation to work from though. You did it!

[biscuits]

So glad you went Merritt! I remember you thinking about whether to go or not.

[Merritt]

Thank you kindly, Spud & Biccies

[Hollie]

Nice one Merritt, that's something to be proud of getting out there like that, especially by yourself, is amazing!
And hopefully it might be something to look back on like, 'hell yeah, I can do it'

[Merritt]

Ta, Hollie