Type what you're thinking about right now (11)

[BFG_]

Thinking it was a disappointing ending the better call Saul, I wanted there to be a twist at the end where he managed to get off scot free

[biscuits]

^^ maybe our bodies are rejecting the foreign object that is ‘cool air’

^ Oh, that’s a shame. Sticking with a series for such a long time and the finale being a disappointment is frustrating. It happens too much in TV land! Luckily for me, I thought it was the ending it should have been,

but it felt like a twist in a way because Saul could charm his way to anything he wanted, apart from the things he really wanted.

[BFG_]

^after watching the film Nobody it feels like the two characters of nobody and saul should merge together in some alternative reality

[biscuits]

^ pitch!

Originally Posted by biscuits

Jeremy Paxman is stepping down from University Challenge

It won't be the same without him.

The replacement host has been announced: Amol Rajan!

Excellent choice!

[Rocket Spud]

I'm having the most unsatisfying farts today. I get the urge thinking it's gonna be a whopper and then it just kinda fluffs out. They're just fluffs. Weak little fluffs.

[Mike.Kzov]

^ Don't get disheartened spuddy. I'm sure the next one will be a gut busting rip roarer.

[Rocket Spud]

^ Thanks, buddy, we'll see what tomorrow brings.

Thinking about it, i haven't had a ripper for a long time. Maybe i can't handle it any more. My body is just saying 'no, this is too much'

[Amara 94]

I feel like my job is a terrible fit for me. But it’s partly my fault as to why I’m in the job.

[Professor Willow]

I think it's sad that we love in a world where people feel the need to apologise for taking time to look after themselves.
A person who I follow on Instagram has been very quiet lately and this morning posted an apology to their followers for the lack of content recently because they have been dealing with mental health issues and it just made me think that they shouldn't have to apologise for being unwell.

Maybe I'm just completely over thinking something that isn't any of my business.

[choirgirl]

I don't seem to be able to function at all well if I'm having an existential crisis/major emotional stuff on top of my usual executive dysfunction/anxiety/laziness combo. This happened last time the job market was good. Although that period was worse. But function I must. I can't really fall apart into grief or fully restructure myself without a great deal of alone time, and in order to get alone time (and for it not to be a disaster) I need to be able to function. I need to either care or turn myself into a robot (in which case trying to heal is probably getting in the way). I'm feeling a sensation similar to when you find really cool kids' stuff as an adult that you didn't have. You appreciate it, but you don't care anymore. I need to care.

[Hollie]

I'm dying to try going to a nightclub but my friends think I'm bonkers and no one is up for going with me. I'd need to catch a train to the city which is definitely not something I'd feel safe doing alone at night

[Clumsy*]

^Snap Hollie I'd be up for it, it's on my bucket list, but I live to far away from you (South). Hope you find a buddy to go with. How about asking in this thread:

https://www.social-anxiety-community...ad.php?t=93995

You never know...
I miss Gregarious_Introvert now.

[Hollie]

^ thank you Clumsy and ditto about the bucket list! Even if it's just to poke my head in and see what's going on

[biscuits]

^ ah yeah maybe they'd go if it's a specific themed night? You can get ones that do 70s nights. There was a club near me that only plays rock music - different nights had different genres. I'd also go if I was closer because I love to dance

[biscuits]

I went to a place today and ordered the vegetarian taco dish. I started eating it and thought, "Wow, this tastes so realistic like chicken!"

I gave a piece to my meat eating sister and she was like, "That IS chicken!"

[Amara 94]

Leaving my job for certain now though it's difficult as I plan to travel at the end of next month.

Today towards the end of my shift a coworker from a different department was showing a man around the hotel and when she was showing the section I was working at, it was like she was ashamed of me or didn't want to acknowledge me or felt awkward around me. There were other people in the section I was working as well. Even when my manager introduced me to the new Hotel manager, he didn't seem to do it with much pride and just said he takes care of "back of house duties."

I think I don't want to work in a hotel environment again. To me it is full of gossip and feels shallow and fake. Then the shifts are too much hours because of how you can either do morning or evening shifts, have doubles, have off days really spaced out that you work 14 days in a row. I feel it doesn't directly impact my health as I try to sleep enough but it makes it hard to focus on being healthy.

I work in a refugee hotel at the moment and the hotel doesn't seem keen on helping the refugees. At least the restaurant. They act like it is a chore. Anything they ask for, such as green chillies isn't taken to account and the chef says they don't have many green chillies but if the refugees repeatedly ask for that then it's common sense that the hotel can provide a bigger batch of green chillies. Recently some refugees were acting out and making accusations. They accused me of spreading the virus because I have to polish some glasses but the refugee was saying that I was putting my hand in the glass which I wasn't. They accused another colleague of staring at a woman. Initially I was angry about this but then I feel like they feel we don't treat them that well so were projecting. Also they are moving to another hotel. Like me moving to another job, if I haven't found my job pleasant it's not like I would think nicely about the job I am leaving. My colleagues say we shouldn't be too nice to the refugee otherwise they would take advantage but maybe they need some niceness, or someone who makes them see opportunity.

I feel the industry is not for me. It's too much performing, about social status and not always about doing actual work. At the moment I am looking at some janitor positions.

[Dougella]

^ I'm not sure how being nice to people causes them to take advantage. A bit of kindness goes a long way I would think, for people who have been through so much and are in a completely new country. It sounds like you're much more understanding towards them, Alone.

[anxiouslondoner]

^^^ oh no! I hope not. I've been there though. "hmmm, this vegetarian dish tastes a bit TOO convincing..." not sure how I can tell any more, but I think I can.

[biscuits]

^ it turned out that it was chicken, Al! We asked the guy and he was like, "Yes, it is the chicken version."

I definitely ordered the vegetarian dish because I've been vegetarian for forever, I didn't suddenly forget (I didn't say that hahah).

[Dougella]

^ True, and perhaps also your Dad and maybe siblings if you're lucky.

[Amara 94]

Originally Posted by NeverWas

Thinking about how no one will ever tolerate or deep down care about you unconditionally like your mother. As dysfunctional as mine is, I know that. It must be a great loss to lose one. No one will ever have as much regard for you as a mother, and especially no man for sure. Everyone else will want something or other in return but her.

How are you so sure? Maybe most people but not everyone.

[Amara 94]

I haven't cried for years. I feel like to genuinely access the feeling of crying again I need to express my anger, release it and ten imagine pain will come out which I am scared to actually express because it feels weak although it isn't. I don't know if I could do this alone. It seems like I am more anxious in social situations but they can also make me more sad. However it's very hard for me to feel safe in most social situations to be able to express my emotions.

[Amara 94]

I'm broken

[Dougella]

^ You're not broken Alone

[Clumsy*]

It's amazing how the grass has sprung back to life after a day or two of rain.
It's lush and green now.

Does it grow new leaves, or do the yellow dry ones rehydrate?

I wish I knew how to take life less seriously. What's the secret?

[Amara 94]

Originally Posted by Clumsy*

It's amazing how the grass has sprung back to life after a day or two of rain.
It's lush and green now.

Does it grow new leaves, or do the yellow dry ones rehydrate?

I wish I knew how to take life less seriously. What's the secret?

To be vulnerable I guess??? Is it bad to take life seriously? I think it’s all about perspective. I think ultimately we should learn to be vulnerable as to reach our potential, feel joy, we need to allow ourselves to be open to pain as well. Something society doesn’t tell us.

Bring authentic us vulnerable and we may be seen as too sensitive or steps by some for that.

[anxiouslondoner]

^ it's dangerous to be vulnerable in a world full of and run by sociopaths, people who would destroy you for their own amusement and face no consequences.

[choirgirl]

I'm 20 years behind in my maturing. Stupid becoming ugly and sa and my own lack of direction. How I wish I could redo most of the noughties.

[Clumsy*]

Originally Posted by Alone.

Is it bad to take life seriously?

No, it's not bad, but taking life too seriously strips the joy off life.
Too much worrying, too much regret, the usual negative patterns I get into.

[3stacks]

Can I become a nice better person or am I stuck like this? I've been a nasty person in the past and I don't ever want to be like that again but I seem to still fall into those bad habits even though I'm trying not to

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