Type what you're thinking about right now (11)

[biscuits]

I need to go into town to get some shoes for the change in weather. I gave all my shoes away and forgot that I would forget to get new shoes. Now I only have sandals left to wear in the rain.

[Mike.Kzov]

^ Why did you give all your shoes to someone?? What did you get in exchange?

[Jam do Bronx]

^ She was fed up of being criticised, so she decided to give others the opportunity to walk a mile in her shoes.

[biscuits]

^

^^ I gave all my shoe-shoes all away to a lady who was collecting shoes for people fleeing Ukraine. I was thinking that I wouldn't need them over the summer so just gave them all to her!

[Mike.Kzov]

^ Aw I see, that was kind of you :-)

[Jam do Bronx]

^^ I dunno why, but I had a feeling it was for that reason. That's a very thoughtful thing to do and is in keeping with the kind of person you are.

[Amara 94]

Maybe the path to success or doing what I like, isn't just pushing myself to do activities I like but also finding support, genuine support. I said that I seemed to make a friendship with one security guard at work, though I was scared of the connection as she is an older woman and I am attracted to her but think a relationship isn't an option.

Yesterday, after not seeing each other for a few day she greeted me, showed interest to connect with her conversation with me, it was actually mostly her speaking, and that helped to make my day much better yesterday. find that she always helps to make my day better. Right after the interaction I felt like more was possible. It's like when I have some social support automatically life feels easier.

So I was thinking doing activities I like to do or being more open about what I enjoy helps my sense of self and wellbeing. But social support helps even more. Maybe I need a mentor or something, but one that I feel genuinely wants to help me and that I also feel like I can connect with. Or I need a tribe.

[Bluebear]

Originally Posted by biscuits

^ nice! I've been on the cable car. It's not as scary as taking the bus

I haven't been on the cable car, or the bus (does sound scary )

[SpectralOwls]

I think... I'm really upset that people don't accept me as who I am. I feel like, every time my depression flares up this is what consistently goes through my mind. It's been honestly really bad after moving here and living in this house. I have to pretend to be someone I'm not and it's so rough and taking a toll on me. I hate dressing up to conform to someone else's standards, I hate pretending to have a different set of beliefs, and I hate also pretending that everything is okay.

I've finally gotten a job though, but I haven't started yet. The money will be paltry but I don't care, we're getting out of here no matter what. I just can't mentally take it... I'm full on getting depression now and it's rough. So rough.

[Dougella]

^ That does sound really rough. Well done with getting the job and I hope you can move out really soon! Are you able to wear what you want just in your own room and then put on a cardigan or something, when you go elsewhere in the house?

[Percy]

SpectralOwls

[Bluebear]

SpectralOwls

[Bluebear]

I think support (especially genuine support) is very important. Pushing ourselves re activities without support (or with only very little support) makes everything much harder. Maybe a mentor for you might be a good idea, someone you can connect with (I've had a couple of people who have been sort of mentors for me, they have been very helpful and supportive)

Originally Posted by Alone.

Maybe the path to success or doing what I like, isn't just pushing myself to do activities I like but also finding support, genuine support. I said that I seemed to make a friendship with one security guard at work, though I was scared of the connection as she is an older woman and I am attracted to her but think a relationship isn't an option.

Yesterday, after not seeing each other for a few day she greeted me, showed interest to connect with her conversation with me, it was actually mostly her speaking, and that helped to make my day much better yesterday. find that she always helps to make my day better. Right after the interaction I felt like more was possible. It's like when I have some social support automatically life feels easier.

So I was thinking doing activities I like to do or being more open about what I enjoy helps my sense of self and wellbeing. But social support helps even more. Maybe I need a mentor or something, but one that I feel genuinely wants to help me and that I also feel like I can connect with. Or I need a tribe.

[Dean Winchester]

SpectralOwls - that is very good news about the job, pleased yr getting out.

[biscuits]

That's such good news that you've got a job, SpectralOwls. This is the start of things moving upwards

[SpectralOwls]

Ah, wow. Thank you for the kind words, everyone. You all really ground me and bring me back on track. I seriously love you guys. <3

Yes, I've been focusing on the prospect of finally having a job now! I'm really excited, and FINALLY got my schedule up, so I will officially be starting in-store tomorrow (did a loooong list of training online for the past few days). My job is picking for home deliveries. I don't think I'm gonna be thrust into cashiering right away, but I am a bit worried about that and trying to keep the intrusive thoughts at bay. My husband says if I bring it up I probably won't be put onto it, but realistically the store is very understaffed so I'm a bit doubtful of that... (Ack, why can't I just focus on the good of things here. My mind always goes to what possibly might go in an undesirable route for me. )

I'm embarrassed to admit that I still don't feel confident with my knowledge on coins here. :') I need to work on that. Obviously I know my US coins, but I've only ever used my card and plastic cash here so I'm barely used to the lesser coins...

[genovese]

Anyone with a foreign accent AND low coin knowledge will be sent to Rwanda. So sort your shit out girl.
International holidays aside, well done on the job! I'll bet you do great.

[anxiouslondoner]

^^ As far as I remember:
small, copper = 1p
larger, copper = 2p
small, silvery, thin = 5p
larger, silvery, thin = 10p
small, polygonal sides = 20p
larger, polygonal sides = 50p
small, thick, got a border = £1
larger, thick, border = £2 (can't remember when I last saw one)

well done on getting the job!

[cymruambyth26]

It's frustrating that the start of my Masters degree will be delayed by one day but it's because of the funeral so I will deal with it.

I'm already confused about what is expected each day next week as it's not been laid out clearly to me. I have a rough overview.

I need to know where I need to be each day in advance so I can prepare.

[SFC01]

Off to boxing soon, lost 1 and half stone since I started up again 2 months ago, along with my intermittent fasting

I think I can say, im not a fat mother****er anymore yay

[Professor Willow]

I'm really not happy with the standard of my new dentist, she spends more time yapping than actually examining my teeth.
Her predecessor was much more thorough but he's retired so I guess I'm stuck with half arsed Fanny Anny.

[biscuits]

Originally Posted by anxiouslondoner

^^ As far as I remember:
small, copper = 1p
larger, copper = 2p
small, silvery, thin = 5p
larger, silvery, thin = 10p
small, polygonal sides = 20p
larger, polygonal sides = 50p
small, thick, got a border = £1
larger, thick, border = £2 (can't remember when I last saw one)

well done on getting the job!

I love those descriptions :D



Is that old? It doesn't look right but I haven't handled cash in such a long time.

[Rocket Spud]

Car sharing with one of the trainee's tomorrow and i'm not looking forward to it. I'm driving. 2hrs each way I'm not certain he's coming back with me. Hopefully he'll come back with one of the others we're meeting up there with. He's actually really likeable, but it's a long time. Christ knows how the conversation will go, he's half my age. I may even be underestimating how difficult this may be for me.

[Dougella]

^ Maybe put the radio on, or have music ready to play so you don't feel like you have to be talking too much? Good luck!

[Dougella]

I had to phone the doctor's surgery at 8am to ask to be put in the queue for a phonecall with a doctor, took me 10 minutes to get through. I've been waiting since then for a phonecall, this is not good for people with anxiety!

[Rocket Spud]

Originally Posted by Dougella

^ Maybe put the radio on, or have music ready to play so you don't feel like you have to be talking too much? Good luck!

It was fine, no drama. Mostly conversation on the way, did the thing, then on the way back a bit more talk before music the rest of the way. He nodded off the last 1/3.

[SpectralOwls]

Originally Posted by genovese

Anyone with a foreign accent AND low coin knowledge will be sent to Rwanda. So sort your shit out girl.
International holidays aside, well done on the job! I'll bet you do great.

LOL Thank you! Well day one went fine. My leggies are tired from the walking.

Originally Posted by anxiouslondoner

^^ As far as I remember:
small, copper = 1p
larger, copper = 2p
small, silvery, thin = 5p
larger, silvery, thin = 10p
small, polygonal sides = 20p
larger, polygonal sides = 50p
small, thick, got a border = £1
larger, thick, border = £2 (can't remember when I last saw one)

well done on getting the job!

Thank you! And also thank you to Biscuits for the picture too. Honestly I'm gonna use it to study with.

[Dougella]

Originally Posted by Rocket Spud

It was fine, no drama. Mostly conversation on the way, did the thing, then on the way back a bit more talk before music the rest of the way. He nodded off the last 1/3.

That's great

[biscuits]

A courier dropped a parcel off and it smells like nans. I put the package in my car, fully intending to take it into work this morning. Only I forgot to pick it up and take it out of the car because I started chatting. The package was left in my car all day and now my car smells like nan.

[Hollie]

^ are you ordering nan-scented candles?