The Suicide Thread - Trigger Warning

[Dougella]

^ I'm sure people don't mean to tell you that, do they?

[Mellie]

one girl said sorry to me after. why is everyone blaming my mental health, and teaming up on me it seems.

[Dougella]

Well, atleast someone apologised, it's an awful thing to say.

[Mellie]

my brother had a right go at me today feel so shit now

[Mellie]

im not going to get better in this hospital

[Dougella]

Originally Posted by Mellie

my brother had a right go at me today feel so shit now

What did he say?

[Quietman]

Sorry Mellie, my sister always has a go at me, I just switch off now and an old saying comes to my mind sticks and stones, take no notice.

[Mellie]

said snap out of your depression, and stop pushing your family away.

[Dougella]

^ That's not possible is it, it would be nice if people could snap out of depression but sadly they can't.

[Mellie]

no its like telling someone to snap out of having a broken leg....

[Mellie]

also said don't expect staff to help you ... i mean that's what staff are here for isn't it? not that they do much just give meds..

[Quietman]

^ I would of thought that the staff would want to help people, I mean that’s their job to support people to get to hopefully a brighter future, all these hospitals are all the same in my experience I’m sorry you are going through this Mellie I wish I could do more to help you.

[Mellie]

They don't want me here , I heard them say they want me out asap. well tbh I don't want to be here... it's crazy! thanks quietman, I don't think anyone can do much I have just got to sort myself out and not rely on others.

[Percy]

Originally Posted by Mellie

said snap out of your depression, and stop pushing your family away.

I hate when people say that, as if we could just snap out of it.

[Mellie]

I know, he doesn't understand mental health.

[Quietman]

Feeling really ill again, I wish I had the courage then I could be gone from all this.

[Consolida]

^ I'm so sorry you're having to suffer this pain and I hope that in time you will start to heal and will experience some good times again Quietman

[Quietman]

^ I could do it now and no one would really care, stay strong Consolida.

[Consolida]

^ Well, I think there are people that would care very much but some of them are rubbish at showing that they care or offering support until it's sadly too late

You stay strong too

[Tembo]

I seem to just piss my family off, my work colleagues and my few remaining friends. Honestly, what is the point of carrying on? I’m just a ****, end of.

I’m so cynical about this shithole we happen to live in. Don’t see the point of it at all.

[Quietman]

^ Hope you feel better soon Tembo, I'm on the verge of leaving this horrible world nothing seems worth it anymore. Hang in there Tembo thing's will improve for you im sure.

[Tembo]

thank you Quietman. I feel bad for my outburst there. I’m a little calmer now.

Quietman, I know you’ve been through an awful lot recently. All I can say is hang in there too. I do hope you will get through this and get to feel some positivity in the future. Things can change.

[Mellie]

Tembo that's what this place is for to open up about what's going on for you, don't feel bad about it.

I'm quite scared of this hospital I'm in now - I want out asap. They asked if I want leave on my own so that's a step forward to getting out soon.. got told to go to my room cos its too dangerous in corridor, feel bad for staff. I still don't want to live but I'm going to try and be positive from now on, i don't want them to know that my mental health isn't good - they aren't that sympathetic here anyway heard them sat in office laughing at the women who was shouting.

[Quietman]

Went to cut my arm haven't done that for years, feeling really down, again I think soon is the time, I feel bad about typing it on here but if I did't have a place to vent I would be more likely to do it without thinking. Its not just my mom its that gene test, my dads illness all on top of the other.

[Consolida]

^ I'm so sorry that you are going through so much on your own and I wish that there was something that I could say or do to help
Please don't feel bad about venting here. I vent here all the time and often feel embarrassed when I see my late night posts in the cold light of day but ah well, it is a mental health support forum after all!

Isn't there a chance that the test results will come back to say that you don't have the gene? Either way, you really should be receiving professional support for all that you are coping with at the moment. Everyone, including myself, says reach out for support but where the heck is it

Please keep posting, Quietman, or I for one shall start to worry

[Percy]

Originally Posted by Tembo

I seem to just piss my family off, my work colleagues and my few remaining friends. Honestly, what is the point of carrying on? I’m just a ****, end of.

I’m so cynical about this shithole we happen to live in. Don’t see the point of it at all.

Sorry to hear you're feeling bad Tembo, chin up.

[Mellie]

I can't do this anymore

[Dougella]

^

[Mellie]

Thanks dougella

[Quietman]

Feeling really suicidal again nights are the worst, I can’t watch tv because my OCD brain goes into overdrive.