The Suicide Thread - Trigger Warning

[biscuits]

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[Mellie]

I always pull away from people when I get at my worst and everyone who can't deal with me when I'm really unwell gives up anyway cos no one knows what to do and I'm constantly putting off therapy cos I struggle to know what to say and I'm a pathetic human being and wish I never existed.

[Percy]

Originally Posted by Consolida

Not good. Pain so bad. I've let my loved ones down. So ashamed.

Originally Posted by Mellie

I always pull away from people when I get at my worst and everyone who can't deal with me when I'm really unwell gives up anyway cos no one knows what to do and I'm constantly putting off therapy cos I struggle to know what to say and I'm a pathetic human being and wish I never existed.

[Dougella]

^^^ Consolida is does sound like you could do with some professional support with this But no need to feel ashamed.


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[T]

You try to fit in with life, try to mask over the your problems put on a brave face and face the world yep just a loser! you just don't fit in this world... surprised how long i've survived!

[Percy]

Chin up T

[girlinterrupted]

I hope you're ok T

[biscuits]

Aw, Trev

A little outsider's perspective -> 'loser' is absolutely never the word that comes to mind when I think of you. I'd categorise you as an inspirational poster. You're always out and about, trying to socialise, going to gigs etc. All things that are incredibly hard with SA! You challenge SA and fight through it. You're fairly amazing, tbh! Always putting up that fence in your garden when the wind blows it down - the fence is a good metaphor for you and how you tackle life.

Anxiety is a beast and feelings like these crop up because it's exhausting to constantly be battling with it

Please find someone professional to talk to because anxiety is whispering mean things in your ear and they're false

[Percy]

Good advise Biscuits

[Mellie]

Argh life....

[Quietman]

I too feel like I just don’t want to carry on, life is so awful what’s the point. Stay strong Mellie I know how you feel

[Tembo]

Sorry to hear you are both feeling this way Mellie and Quietman. I hope you both get to see a bit of positivity soon.

[Quietman]

Thanks Tembo

[Quietman]

I have a few hobbies to get me through I like to row for an hour a day but I just don’t have the motivation at the moment life just seems too much

[Percy]

Sorry to hear you're having difficulties Quietman

for Mellie

[Quietman]

Really struggling today may have to speak to a doctor my social anxiety was horrendous when dealing with the funeral takers and then registering the death I just don’t think I can cope for much longer sorry to vent but I have no where else to go

[Percy]

Vent away mister

[Dougella]

Do you have siblings or any relatives who can help you with those types of things Quietman, or atleast be there with you? It's a lot to deal with on your own and it's not surprising your anxiety is worse right now.

[Consolida]

Originally Posted by Quietman

Really struggling today may have to speak to a doctor my social anxiety was horrendous when dealing with the funeral takers and then registering the death I just don’t think I can cope for much longer sorry to vent but I have no where else to go

When I registered my mum's death I was fortunately able to do it online but I know I would have found it impossible if I hadn't got my husband with me when I had to go to the undertakers and make funeral arrangements. I think SA or not, it isn't something that anyone should have to do alone so I really hope that you have a relative or friend to help you? You are going through one of the most stressful experiences that anyone can go through so it's natural that your anxiety would be sky high but, in time, things will become a little easier

[Quietman]

Hi Guys

Sorry for the confusion, my dad and sister came with me
I think it hit me harder than them as I was her main carer for over four years so when the death was registered it really hit me that shes not coming back my parents spilt up when I was 12 and my sister lives in new york so we arent really a close family

[Dougella]

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[Consolida]

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[Quietman]

Thanks guys it’s nice to have people to chat to

[Mellie]

Sorry you are struggling so much quietman , I have a few health issues going on that I have to deal with and also got to go back to hospital where I was previously cos I made a complaint about staff there bullying me but of course they blamed my mental health! Still complaining as my friend admitted to me that they were bullying me so it wasn't just my voices.

[Mellie]

i wish i could say i was ok but im not i just don't want to be sectioned.

[Quietman]

Sorry to hear that Mellie, is there anyone you can talk to? I myself feel ready to end things I just dont want to carry on anymore its just not worth it. i no how your feeling

[Mellie]

I don't know who to talk to anymore I don't think anyone wants to know me.

[Mellie]

sorry you are struggling too, I hope you can get help for how you are feeling, its hard isn't it but it it's also hard to talk to people who keep saying you are pathetic and need to grow up. a&e isn't the right place to recover..

[Mellie]

I can't trust anyone anymore.

[Quietman]

^ Based on my experiences with the NHS mental health I have to say in my experience they arent very good, do you have any friends or your parents to talk too, I find the samaritians to be quite good also some GPs can be good to talk to