How is everyone feeling? (31)

[newbs16]

I hope your dad gets better soon.

[kirbycrackle]

^ that's great news biscuits glad to hear he's okay.

But fed upsie today.

[newbs16]

^^ Hope you're okay Joe x

[Custard_cream]

Glad that your dad is ok biscuits. It must have been so worrying for you.


Started the day off feeling really fed up, stressed, had a massive moan at my manager and a colleague. Think it helped a bit, but there is not really anything that can be done about problems and my workload at the moment. Suppose it helps with people knowing I'm stressed, I think, someone has tried to help out with my work a bit and I've been told to take breaks or go for a walk if everything gets too much.

Interviewing tomorrow. Found my propranolol tonight, so hopefully that will help tomorrow.

[newbs16]

^ I hope you get on okay tomorrow.

[Sunshine Recorder]

Good to hear your dad's okay, Biscuits!

^^Hope tomorrow goes well for you, CC

[Clementine]

Good luck, CC


I feel ill and gross and a bit worried.

[Clementine]

*sigh* and I've just found out something that felt like a punch in the stomach, even though I've been half expecting it

[BusterBluth]

Sorry to hear that Clementine

[Clementine]

Thank you x

[BusterBluth]

No worries, I know what it's like to find out something that hurts like hell.

[Clementine]

Peculiar

[Merritt]

Pretty sure I'm entering my regularly scheduled low. Feeling urgh and disgusting and am probably going to order a pizza in a moment and feel bad about it later.

[Clementine]

^ Aww, Merry You're ace, feel better x

[kirbycrackle]

Originally Posted by Victoria Lucas

I helped an old man with his shopping at the self-service because he couldn't work it, his hands were shaking so much. I think he had Parkinson's. He couldn't get his change out so I took it out and handed it to him and he told me to keep it and buy my kid a sweetie, what a lovely man.

Well done I need assistance using those bloody things as it is! As soon as I get near the damn thing it goes haywire.

[Clementine]

Originally Posted by Darth Sidious

Have you tried giving her a treat, and while she is eating, be sneaky and take a pic,

Hope everything went ok at CBT and the counsellor was supportive.

I've tried that, she's too clever

Thanks, I had to rearrange the appointment because I was ill.

[Mo34]

Thoughtful. Had the celebrant round the s'morning to discuss service. Will be fairly short as not many ppl can come. Have chosen music of Flowers of the Forest - band of the Scots guards and Amazing Grace - 1st battalion Scots guards. Amazing grace always makes me cry anyway so God help me. Was (surprisingly) nice talking about my dads life with someone though.

She is going to speak about him and read a poem. I also showed her all the cards/letters from my cousins who all had fond memories of him. I felt quite quite uplifted by it the s'morning but have fallen into depression this afternoon. I often seem to still be in suppression mode, like it doesn't feel real and he's just up the road sitting it the care home really and that nothing has changed. I think Thursday (the funeral) will bring that illusion crashing down.

[BusterBluth]

Bless ya Mo, it's really hard. I lost my dad a few years ago now and it was very surreal for a while. Still miss him a lot but it does get easier.

I'm feeling surprisingly positive and excited about the future considering I've been unbelievably depressed for about 7 months that is grand news

[Merritt]

^^ I think anyone would need a little time to adjust, Mo. When my dad died, it took a while for my brain to really click that he was gone. I remember him popping up in dreams a lot, like my brain hadn't quite got round to processing that he was gone. I hope the funeral goes okay, and don't be afraid of crying there, it's the right place for it.

Originally Posted by Clementine

^ Aww, Merry You're ace, feel better x

Thank you

[Indigo_]

Originally Posted by Mo34

Thoughtful. Had the celebrant round the s'morning to discuss service. Will be fairly short as not many ppl can come. Have chosen music of Flowers of the Forest - band of the Scots guards and Amazing Grace - 1st battalion Scots guards. Amazing grace always makes me cry anyway so God help me. Was (surprisingly) nice talking about my dads life with someone though.

She is going to speak about him and read a poem. I also showed her all the cards/letters from my cousins who all had fond memories of him. I felt quite quite uplifted by it the s'morning but have fallen into depression this afternoon. I often seem to still be in suppression mode, like it doesn't feel real and he's just up the road sitting it the care home really and that nothing has changed. I think Thursday (the funeral) will bring that illusion crashing down.

I hope you don't mind me quoting this. My dad suggested a humanist ceremony for Martin and we had a celebrant who spoke about his life. I hope the funeral goes as well as it can for you

[BusterBluth]

Awww, cheers Rebka

Ahh, dem precocious kids eh? I was one once upon a time haha

[Mo34]

Originally Posted by BusterBluth

Bless ya Mo, it's really hard. I lost my dad a few years ago now and it was very surreal for a while. Still miss him a lot but it does get easier.

Originally Posted by Merritt

^^ I think anyone would need a little time to adjust, Mo. When my dad died, it took a while for my brain to really click that he was gone. I remember him popping up in dreams a lot, like my brain hadn't quite got round to processing that he was gone. I hope the funeral goes okay, and don't be afraid of crying there, it's the right place for it.

Originally Posted by Tiger_Lily

I hope you don't mind me quoting this. My dad suggested a humanist ceremony for Martin and we had a celebrant who spoke about his life. I hope the funeral goes as well as it can for you

Originally Posted by biscuits

Think of you, Mo

Thanks for all your kind words

I've just received the celebrants draft ceremony by email. So I'm gonna ponder over any amendments.

[kirbycrackle]

^ all the best to you mo. X

[newbs16]

^^ I'll be thinking of you on Thursday x

[Clementine]

Thinking of you, Mo


I feel as if somebody's taking a bread knife to my insides. Several bread knives actually.

[Xithium]

Shitty.

I've got an interview in the morning and was supposed to have received an email with quite a few questions to fill out (a few 'what would you do if...' scenarios, as well a personal statement and some other bits), which I only found out today. So I've been stressing out trying to get it all completed after getting home from work, which means I haven't been able to do some more actual preparation for the interview, which I'd been planning on. Had also wanted to get an early night, have a relaxing bath etc... but I ended up having a bit of a panic attack and whining on the phone to my partner for hours about how I'm incapable of achieving anything and don't feel strong enough for interviews and changing jobs, etc. I'm not sure whether I should go or not tomorrow. I probably will, as I'll feel defeated if I don't, but I feel way out of my depth and unprepared to be honest.

[Mo34]

Originally Posted by Animal mother

^ all the best to you mo. X

Originally Posted by newbs16

^^ I'll be thinking of you on Thursday x

Originally Posted by Clementine

Thinking of you, Mo

Thanks

[Mo34]

Tired but can't drop off to sleep.

[Cheshire Cat]

^What about listening to the radio, or watching a documentary while lying in bed? It usually helps me to nod off. I find I fall asleep more easily by trying to concentrate on something.

[Mo34]

^
Yeah. I'm semi watching T2 Trainspotting on my laptop in bed. Dunno if I'm not in the right mood but i'm bit disappointed by it. I might try like you say switching to a documentary on youtube or the iplayer.