How is everyone feeling? (31)

[Pandapop]

^
Just had round one of eating , I got a chicken phall, chilli potatoes, chicken pakoras, rice and chips nomnomnom

[Silent Ninja]

Originally Posted by Ramon

hey to is alright, its when its bleeding been warming up all day and you got to go back again!

I was going to say I don't mind the ride home in the heat but today was quite frankly evilly hot and not enjoyable at all.

[flumpsy]

Hungry and angry as two separate entries. The quantities involved require that the words should not be combined.

I am hungry because I have been fasting in order to get my blood test done, not even alcohol or a non-water cold drink despite the fact I had a meeting in a pub early evening.

Angry because my ****ing SA and that snooty healthcare professional meant I walked out of the establishment shaking with a broken voice and simply giving in to the stupid woman who clearly just wanted me to **** off because they were quite busy. Obviously I am angry at myself more but she isn't here so she is an easy target.

Also very disappointed with how today has ended, I tried so hard. I will try it all again on a different day at a different place I guess. It is so rare that the event lives up to my pre-event anxiety, this time it was significantly worse, I even had to use my broken emotional voice to say excuse me just to get people out of my way on the way out, I felt like running.

Ok, ok, I will, I am Angappointegry but I am emboldening it so it doesnt weaken the impact.

[newbs16]

^What happened with that snooty person?

[kirbycrackle]

^^ hope you're a bit settled now flumpsy, nurses are a bit of a lottery I think. Least you went through with it fella


Hungry. No appetite all day then boom!

[newbs16]

^ What you eating?

[kirbycrackle]

Originally Posted by newbs16

^ What you eating?

Cooked some burgers. It's too bloody hot to mess about cooking

[Mo34]

Better for the sun going down.

[Quicksand]

^ yeah me too.

ive asked for at least a temp house move for these 7 weeks holiday coming up. I'm just not going to manage on a daily basis with these buggers the way its been going the last 6 months. 12midnight-2:45am? taking 6yr old 'a walk' at 2:45am cos dad had lost it? 5 days poor sleep on the back of 6 months is just no good for depression/anxiety recovery. if i'm here at the house this summer they'll find every which way to grind any semblance of confidence building ive managed to build up today by staying in. i dont care if people think its odd i stay in - its none of their god-damn business. i'm knackered. i know its a pipedream asking for temp accomm through the GP but its all ive got left before signing into a mental health institution and a friend tells me i may think its a quick fix but theyre not nice places to be. this summer is going to be horrible with this bunch because noone is listening and the housing officer is not convinced its not noisy - as per usual. i'm done. £30 til end of week aint great either but thats why u can do sandwiches in summer and go for walks if its getting too much.

although the positives are i had a laugh at myself falling on ze bum in front garden other day tidying it up - once wasnt enough for me ofc had to be twice. jeez.

[Clementine]

Melancholy.

[kirbycrackle]

^ sorry you're blue clemsy X hope you feel brighter soon lassie.

So warm. Even things in the fridge feel room temp. I need a breeze!!!!!

[blancmange]

^ I know the feeling hope you're okay?

[wd40mk17.4]

I don't change. Don't think I ever will.

[Clementine]

Originally Posted by Animal mother

^ sorry you're blue clemsy X hope you feel brighter soon lassie.

Thank you x

I feel really anxious, just had two Valium from my emergency stash.

[Merritt]

^ Did anything cause the anxiety, or is it one of those annoying out of the blue things?

[Professor Willow]

Confused
I'm constantly being told that I should put my own needs first intead of everyone else's, so when I try to do this I'm accused of being selfish.
I give up

[Silent Treatment]

^ it is not selfish to put your needs first...even if it was you are entitled to be sometimes, so long as you are prepared to compromise on other things.

[Clementine]

Originally Posted by Merritt

^ Did anything cause the anxiety, or is it one of those annoying out of the blue things?

Had CBT appointment and I was panicking because I'd done hardly anything I was supposed to, and she's a bit scary. It was actually pretty good though, I'm all mellow again

[blancmange]

Originally Posted by Garm

Thanks Dimples Sorry you know those feels too I'm OK just wish my life wasn't governed so much by anxiety and self doubt

I'm glad you're okay, I do hope things improve for you!

[Quicksand]

and u can forget loud angry door knocking 3 times when i'm bloody well trying to relax in the bath. jesus. this aint funny anymore. the kids are complaining to the school that my teen should be in school! - thats just not on - she had a valid absence when others in her year were off today for similar - when I was told five years ago not to get involved in other peoples lives up at the school. this is society gone nuts. ive had enough. just bid for another house and GP tom. my mothers been told that one today as she's in the audience tonight and it should make her see what ive been putting up with but i doubt it. im scared to leave my house in the evening when these kids are out there screaming cos i think even their adults have been telling them too much. and education system has a cheek to go through me with my parenting last term.

[Clementine]

^^ Thanks, Snarf

I feel quite pleased that I've managed to cope through a couple of potentially days pretty well.
Beating myself up about being such a ****ed up, complicated friend though.

[Rocket Spud]

Restless, agitated, lethargic - same as yesterday. There's definitely a psychosomatic element in there, feeding the cycle.

I'm going for a walk a bit later, nevermind the heat. I can't stand feeling this way.

[David K]

Originally Posted by Clementine

^^ Thanks, Snarf

I feel quite pleased that I've managed to cope through a couple of potentially days pretty well.
Beating myself up about being such a ****ed up, complicated friend though.

Stop beating yourself up! Glad the CBeebies went okay. That's my new name for CBT it's really funny I am a rare wit.

[Clementine]

Ta

I feel quite horrendous (physically).

[Clementine]

Tired and ouchy, that was a horrible night.

[Rianne]

Hoping you will feel better later Clementine.

[blancmange]

^^

Pleased with myself I went for a walk at 5 this morning and really enjoyed it, my dog was so happy, it was cool and the air smelt sweet, I really appreciated it.... I need to get out more. Hopefully I'll go again tomorrow.

[newbs16]

Originally Posted by Dimplesxo

^

Pleased with myself I went for a walk at 5 this morning and really enjoyed it, my dog was so happy, it was cool and the air smelt sweet, I really appreciated it.... I need to get out more. Hopefully I'll go again tomorrow.

Well done

[blancmange]

Thanks newbs x

[Professor Willow]

Insecure, emotional, a mess