How is everyone feeling? (31)

[Dougella]

^ The rules are changing on 17th, which is next Monday, and we will be allowed to visit other people's homes and stay over night. So if going to stay with your parents for a bit would help you you'll be able to do that from then.

[Mo34]

^^^ Oh I'm glad she's feeling better

Yeah she at least was helpful. As to ATS there not really interested I don't suppose. I suspect their just hoping I'll go away tbh.

[Consolida]

Originally Posted by indignant misanthrope

lately I have been overwhelmed by a sense of fear. I am not sure if it's the med change but every day I get this feeling something terrible is going to happen to me followed by physical tension, hand and fist clenching. I am also incredibly tired every day. i'm not sleeping as much right now. it's hard to motivate myself to do anything productive.

What meds were you on and what ones have you changed over to?

If your body is still getting used to being off the old meds and adjusting to the new ones this could possibly be making your anxiety feel overwhelming? Just a thought.

Sleep deprivation can also make anxiety worse though I know only too well how hard it is to have a restful nights sleep when you are feeling tense and anxious. It's a vicious circle

Feel better soon


Feeling so worried and apprehensive
My son is starting work experience tomorrow as part of his college course. He has to drive a fair distance on an unknown busy road with lots of crazy drivers and then walk into an office where he knows nobody. Then he has to drive back again avoiding crazy drivers! I feel so anxious anyone would think it was me doing it. I shan't relax for a second until he is back home safely and I know that the day went okay. Does being a mother ever get any easier?

[AireleeBray]

Disappointed my coworkers have seen on fb my daughter is raising money for a good cause & only 1 has said she would donate. Its not about giving money it's they haven't acknowledged it, i understand not everyone can or wants to donate money but if anyone else at work was doing something like this I know they would all support by donating or sharing or talking about it at work.

Just cements the fact for me that I'm not a friend to them. & I feel pretty embarrassed that almost all donations are just family

[Tonkin]

Having one of those days where I wake up and feel like I've been run over by a truck in the night! Well not that bad, but you get the idea. If I run or do any exercise in the evening I feel like absolute rubbish the next day. It's hard because I feel like I need to be fitter for my general health and well being but exercise tends to wipe me out. If I run in the morning instead of the evening, I feel too knackered to really get any work done all day. Walking doesn't really help with my fitness as I do it a lot so it's not really taxing enough.

[Alone.]

A bit irritable. But it's a Facebook group conversation that made me irritable.

[Consolida]

^ Facebook should carry a Government health warning like a packet of fags


@ Tonkin -It's good that you are keeping up with the exercise even though it wipes you out. I've never felt energised by exercise - exactly the opposite - and envy those people that get a real buzz from it.

Originally Posted by AireleeBray

Disappointed my coworkers have seen on fb my daughter is raising money for a good cause & only 1 has said she would donate. Its not about giving money it's they haven't acknowledged it, i understand not everyone can or wants to donate money but if anyone else at work was doing something like this I know they would all support by donating or sharing or talking about it at work.

Just cements the fact for me that I'm not a friend to them. & I feel pretty embarrassed that almost all donations are just family

I don't blame you for feeling disappointed, I'd feel exactly the same way too

I guess if people acknowledge your daughter's good cause then they will feel that they should also be donating and if money is tight or they have good causes coming up on their Facebook regularly from other 'friends' then it's not possible to donate to them all. It won't be because they don't like you or anything because you are clearly lovely

Don't feel embarrassed. The most important people in your life - your family - have donated and that's all that matters. Well done to your daughter, btw, you must be such a proud mummy


@ Nanuq Thank you He got there okay (I told him to text me when he arrived) so that's a relief. Just the return journey for me to worry about now


@ Indignant Misanthrope Thank you
I'm sorry that you are unemployed. I hope you find something to do today to distract you from your anxieties

[Dougella]

^ I think a lot of young people would be excited by going somewhere new and meeting new people, I wish I knew what that felt like . I hope everything goes well for your son and he's home safely this evening.

[Consolida]

^ Thanks
He wasn't excited about it and would have preferred not to be going but he seemed calm and resigned to the fact that this work experience is a necessary part of his college course. I think only the most confident extrovert types would feel excited about meeting new people. Just the mere thought of it makes me want to..... I'll leave you to imagine what, lol!

[Dougella]

^ Aw, well yes it's just something that's necessary, good that he is able to be calm about it. I feel the same!

[AireleeBray]

Thankyou consolida, I am a very proud mummy.

My feelings about my coworkers was set in stone today though, 4 of us talking about looking forward to cinemas opening
1-'oh I want to take my son to see this movie'
Me - 'oh I want to take my son to see that'
2 - 'me &' other coworker' are taking our girls
3 - -'me too I want to take my son'.
1 (to person 3) - 'me & you should go Wednesday & we can take them to get mcdonalds'
3- 'yes we should let's go next week'
1 - 'my son would love that we can go as soon as I pick him up'

Me - stand there awkwardly

[Consolida]

@ No Longer Human Yes we need to see a picture from your leopard print jacket and fishnet stockings era!

I wouldn't want to be a teenager again apart from having good physical health that I totally took for granted. I think it's true, in some ways, that youth is wasted on the young.
I don't remember having any independence in my teens. I had a very sheltered upbringing compared to others my age. My mother had old fashioned ideas and especially puritanical views when it came to her daughter and boys


@ AireleeBray - Aww, stuff your coworkers you are far too nice to be their friend! I've experienced similar things in the past and it's so gutting isn't it.
I don't understand how a group of people can be so rude and insensitive to talk about going out and not invite everybody that's standing there. It seems to me that it is them NOT you that is lacking in social skills xx

[AireleeBray]

^^ thankyou both, it is painful, I try not to care, but I've been holding in tears all day. Feeling worthless really.

[Professor Willow]

Feeling tired but content with a job well done.

[Consolida]

^ Aww you and me both Kooky
Wouldn't it be nice if we could change our brains but only the negative self destructive bits so we could be the same person but a happier more positive version of ourselves.

Feel better soon

[girlinterrupted]

I'm too tired to know, and yet still awake. Something seems awry there

[Percy]

Originally Posted by Kooky Monster

Absolutely defeated and at my wit's end.

I'm not usually one for crying but I've been a blubbering mess for the past three hours and counting. I wish it were possible to trade this shitty brain in for a new one.

Aw, what's wrong?

[anewyear]

Maybe it's the alcohol talking but actually, maybe I'm doing ok :-) just back from the pub and held my own in a good way

[anewyear]

Kooky - is that assignments?

[T]

Does anyone feel at times that you can't connect to people lately i've been feeling like this for a few weeks now just getting me down abit!

[Tembo]

^ Yes, certainly. Especially in recent months. Including people I am fairly close to.

I hope you feel a better about it soon T. Is it because you haven't been socialising as much due to obvious reasons?

[TheLostSoul]

So fed up. No progress after 10 years of this shit. No progress after meds or therapy. The hardest thing to admit is that I've not done all I can to change things, I've sat here and let it continue and pitied myself.

At this point I'm hopelessly waiting for them to produce a drug as effective as benzos that's safe to take every day long term. Can't see any other way out of this.

[Dougella]

^ It sounds like you really have been trying , it's really hard when you feel like you're still not improving (I know that feeling well). There are different approaches you can try, different types of therapy maybe. Don't give up but don't be too hard on yourself either.

[Percy]

I agree with dougella, the most important thing is to never give up. If it doesn't work, move on and try something else.

[Tembo]

Completely hopeless. Would be good if just one aspect of my life had some sort of hope. I wish I had someone really close to I could talk about this, but no one wants to listen, not that I’m particularly close to anyone anyway.

It’s 1.30am and my alarm goes off at 6. My week is already off to a bad start.

[Counterpoint]

Sorry you're feeling that way @Tembo. There are definitely people here who would want to listen! But I understand that feeling of not having somebody really close to share things with. I have felt that a lot myself recently.

I had a rough night too. I often use use those youtube relaxation videos if I can't sleep, as I hate that feeling of knowing the alarm is going to go off only a few hours later.

Try not to lose heart @TheLostSoul. Sometimes when things seem really bleak it can be worth just changing a few small things that you know are within your control (eg. exercise, eating well, keeping a diary, try to change some bad habits), and forgetting the bigger things until you are in a better place to deal with them. I've got at least 20 years of this shit and I'm still ticking, although that might not sound encouraging, there is always hope even if we can't see it, and most importantly you are not alone in this.

[Tubbs]

Just sort of low-level(?) depressed of late, for no good reason. Been trying to weather the storm as it were, wait for it to pass, but it won't shift. 😪

[Percy]

^Tell it to bugger off tubbs.

[Tubbs]

hehe. Bugger orf, depression! 😬😬😬

[Percy]

Poke it with a big stick if it refuses to budge