How is everyone feeling? (31)

[Consolida]

^ Thank you Biscuits x

[Tubbs]

@Consolida I'm really sorry, love to you and your family xx

[Consolida]

^/^^ Thank you so much Lee and Tubbs

[anxiouslondoner]

^

[Consolida]

^ Thanks for the hug

[Percy]

Sorry to hear consolida.

[Consolida]

^ Thank you Percy.

Feeling so very fragile and I keep bursting into tears. I know it's to be expected.

I've got an appointment at the undertaker's tomorrow to sort out funeral arrangements which I'm obviously not looking forward to but hopefully I'll be able to sort out something that will do my mum proud.

[Marco]

Really sorry to hear about your loss, Consolida. I hope you find support and comfort from your family. Do take care.

[Consolida]

^ Thank you, Marco, that's very kind of you.

[limey123]

So sorry, Consolida, we are here for you

[Appear]

Take care, Consolida.

[SpectralOwls]

<3 Consolida, so sorry to hear... Take care of yourself, and I hope you and your family will be well during this time. <3 Take all the time you need for yourself.

[Tembo]

So sorry Consolida. I hope you are getting lots of support, and definitely use SAUK as much as you need.

[Professor Willow]

@Consolida
I'm so sorry for your loss

I really hope you can appreciate how much of an amazingly strong person you have been whilst caring for your mum.

[Merritt]

^ I second that.

Take good care, Consolida

[Merritt]

Feel pretty exhausted. I went to a wedding reception last night (thank you for everyone who gave advice on what to wear ) and it was a solid 4 1/2 hours of not knowing who most people were, having no idea who/what/where I was supposed to give my attention, smiling gormlessly and hoping no one expected more than a 'yeah' or an 'aww' or a 'haha' out of me, going deaf from sitting near speakers... just generally all the things that completely drain my batteries and then stomps on them and sets them on fire. I'm glad I went, but also glad to not have to do it again for a good few years, if ever

[biscuits]

^ nice one, Merritt

What was the cake like?

[Merritt]

Ta, Biccies

It had a lot of icing! It was a welcome plate of sugar stodge as I've been avoiding sweet stuff for a couple of weeks so my shirt wouldn't be straining at the buttons quite so much. Now I'm torn between keeping it up or going to Greggs and buying 14 Belgian buns.

[biscuits]

If it made you feel good then keep it up! The occasional Belgian bun never hurt anyone. Actually they'd probably be my weapon of choice if I needed to choose a weapon at the bakery.

[choirgirl]

I'm so sorry, Consolida.

[Alone.]

Out of sync to my environment.

[Alone.]

Anxious.

It makes me feel like we can’t control how we feel. We can manipulate how we are likely to feel but don’t have full control over it.

[Dougella]

^ We can't really control how we feel, no. We can notice it and think about if there's anything we need to do or change to help ourselves feel better, or just be kind to ourselves when we're struggling.

[Consolida]

Originally Posted by Merritt

Feel pretty exhausted. I went to a wedding reception last night (thank you for everyone who gave advice on what to wear ) and it was a solid 4 1/2 hours of not knowing who most people were, having no idea who/what/where I was supposed to give my attention, smiling gormlessly and hoping no one expected more than a 'yeah' or an 'aww' or a 'haha' out of me, going deaf from sitting near speakers... just generally all the things that completely drain my batteries and then stomps on them and sets them on fire. I'm glad I went, but also glad to not have to do it again for a good few years, if ever

Wow, you did really well to last 4 1/2 hours! Well done
Fortunately, excluding my own, it's been years and years since I went to a wedding and hopefully it will be a long time until I have to go to another!

[Tubbs]

I concur - well done Merritt for getting through the reception, you did good! Hope you're taking it easy now.

[Consolida]

I'm feeling so utterly miserable
I haven't got dressed or had a shower since...Tuesday I think? I don't even know what day it is anymore. I desperately want to phone my mum and tell her about stuff. Like the kind of flowers I've ordered for the funeral. And the music I've picked. And just general day to day gossip that no one in my life but my mum would have been interested in. Life absolutely sucks.

[Dougella]

^ I'm so sorry, that must be one of the most painful parts of losing a parent. I'm sure your mum would have appreciated the things you're arranging for her funeral.

[Percy]

^^

[Consolida]

^/^^ Thank you Dougella and Percy

I'm feeling quite proud of myself because I dragged myself out of bed, had a shower and got dressed then forced myself to cut the lawn that had started to grow quite long. I ended up spending a few hours in the garden cutting back and generally tidying up. That's the first time I've done any gardening this year. My mum used to enjoy seeing what I'd done in my garden so I think she would have been proud of me too

[Dougella]

^ Well done! I'm sure your Mum would have been pleased about that.