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[anxiouslondoner]

^ good luck, I'm sure your fantastic new hairstyle will make it worth the awkxiety (that's a word I just made up for the occasion)

[Professor Willow]

Originally Posted by Percy

What's the point of Made in Chelsea?

Originally Posted by The*Crafty*Elf

What's the point in Any of those "Scripted Reality" shows? You have to wonder just what kind of idiots watch them?

I don't see the point of such dross either.

It's really sad that enough people watch it to make it commercially viable to produce such shit.

[biscuits]

^^ thanks, al! I'm looking forward to the head massage.

[Percy]

Originally Posted by biscuits

Thanks, uncle Percy

You're welcome lady Biscuits

[Professor Willow]

How did my grandparents manage to spawn so many back stabbing narcissists?

[Percy]

I'm loving The Crown

[Alone.]

I find that when I feel helpless and want more of something that I feel I can’t easily get it makes me feel depressed.

Perhaps that’s why sometimes when I have felt it is alright to be boring and don’t strive for too much my mental health seems better, although I do still focus on things, perhaps better as I’m calmer. But I focus on more mundane or easier to achieve things.

But now as I want what feels harder to get it feels like the periods where I feel fine with not trying too hard are some kind of deception.

[genovese]

^ In any environment where your mind starts a conveyor belt of thoughts such as those (easily done btw), try going through some song lyrics in your head. Or even a nursery rhyme.
Your brain then has something to focus on and 'thoughts' suddenly do not get through - as easily.
I hadn't realised I was doing it, but anytime I take a blood test at the hospital I starting singing
1 2 3 4 5 once I caught a fish alive....etc.

Very difficult to think & sing at the same time.
Try it in different environments, standing in a queue etc. More practiced you get at doing it, the more control you can gain in a situation.

[newbs16]

It must be nice to have a bladder that stays silent in the night.

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[Alone.]

^^ I’m thinking of this song.

It’s good that you managed to eat lunch in a busy place though.

[Rocket Spud]

Downstairs has had her fb over for two nights running and i'm wondering when he's gonna **** off - he must have the day off or something today cos he left early yesterday. He usually only stays the night and it's sporadic at that, like once every fortnight. I'm so used to how quiet things are when it's just her, it's quite jarring hearing his louder voice. I feel a lot more self conscious as well, though, hopefully they don't pay me any attention.

[Dougella]

^ What's an fb?

[Existential Jam]

^ Friends with benefits.

[Your Mum]

Very sad to hear that Dot Cotton from off of EastEnders has died.

[Professor Willow]

Being a nice person doesn't get you liked or loved, it gets you used.

[Professor Willow]

Originally Posted by Dougella

^ What's an fb?

F*ck buddy

[Alone.]

^^^RIP June Brown (Dot Cotton)

[Percy]

RIP Dot Cotton

[Consolida]

^ It's sad about Dot Cotton.

It's exactly 5 weeks today since my mum passed away. I can't believe how quickly the time passes. I somehow expected the world to come to a stop afterwards but it just keeps on going. It's so true about time waiting for no one.

I haven't heard back from the undertakers yet regarding collecting the remains. In some ways I don't want to hear back yet as I'm afraid. I want my mum back but not like that. However, I'm also worrying that they may have lost them although I guess that's unlikely. My husband says he can give the undertakers a call to set my mind at rest but I don't think it will. Nothing will.

[Alone.]

It would be nice if e ink displays replace paper posters in public. Obviously lcd screen seem to replace paper adverts but for less stimulating things like a bus schedule e ink seems better as it could blend into the background whilst being able to show updated info unlike paper.

https://youtu.be/5wF3U17-rTU

Surprisingly, compared to a standard screen I wonder if this type of display is still in its infancy.

[Dougella]

^^ Are you planning to scatter her ashes somewhere significant Consolida? Or keep them, some people do like to keep them.

[Scurrilous Rumour]

^

Years ago I was in a crematorium waiting room and they had a display case full of ornaments and jewellery on the wall and a big advertisement offering you the chance to have your recently deceased relative's ashes incorporated into any of the items in the display case. I remember thinking my deceased relative would have burst out laughing and said "if you imagine for one moment that I want to be made into an ornament you can think again...."

Personally, I thought it was a bit odd, but I guess lots of people like it. I suppose everyone has different ways of remembering the dead.

[Consolida]

^^ Dougella, my mum wanted me to scatter the ashes in a countryside setting but never told me anywhere very specific. However, according to a relative, she was very specific about the place when chatting to them a number of years ago. A couple of weeks ago I went to look at this place and it wasn't as nice as I'd envisioned and is somewhere that has absolutely no significance to me although it holds long ago memories for my mum's relative. It's already clear that this relative won't be happy with me if I search for a different place. This issue has been causing me A LOT of stress on top of the grief so I'm thinking I may do nothing for now and just hold on to the ashes for a year. Accept they are in a bio-degradable tube which I'm worrying may disintegrate if I wait a year? The undertaker (who actually phoned today to say they are ready to be picked up) is advising me to buy an urn off the internet (the ones I've just come across look tacky and hideous) so that they can transfer the ashes because I don't want to attempt that myself and end up with what's left of my beloved mum on the living room floor.

^ Scurrilous Rumour, I think my mother would have had the same reaction to your deceased relative. She certainly wouldn't have told me to incorporate her ashes into a glass paper weight or a tattoo, another popular option. But, like you say, everyone likes to remember loved ones differently. Each to their own and all that. I know that if there is anyone to miss me then they can do whatever they want to do with my ashes. I've told my husband and son to flush me down the toilet.

[Dougella]

^^ Ah yes that's where it becomes tricky doesn't it, if the person didn't ask for their ashes to be scattered in a specific place and then relatives start having different opinions on where it should be! It sounds like a good idea to perhaps have them put in an urn and think about it for a while.
I don't think your husband and son would want to flush you down the toilet! I'm sure they'd probably scatter you in a nice garden or the grounds of a nice stately home
I don't think I'd want to be a paperweight either, that would be an odd thing to inherit.
"What's this object?"
"Oh that's just Auntie Dougella in a paperweight."

[Quietman]

All the good memories of my mom and that I have to try and start a new life and try to make friends it’s going to be incredibly hard as I’m 30 now and hardly go out

[Dougella]

^ 30 is still pretty young. You can start with small steps. Do you work at the moment or do you do any kind of volunteering?

[Quietman]

I did volunteer in a charity shop once but found it to be to much, I have also worked in the Royal Mail but with my disability it didn’t go too good anywhere where’s there’s people and things always go wrong I hardly leave the house these days and when I do my nerves are really bad

[Dougella]

^ Charity shops can be a bit much, I found that too. Have you had any professional help or support with your anxiety? (Sorry if this is too many questions, don't feel you have to answer!)

[Quietman]

I’m on citolopram and I’ve also had CBT sessions but I didn’t find the CBT helpful I understand how thoughts can affect our emotions but sometimes I think it’s more than thoughts that’s the problem, I was referred to the community mental health team but all they wanted to do was drug me up

[Dougella]

^ Lots of people here have had similar experiences, including me! Good that you tried though. Hopefully you can find some more advice here and things that others have found helpful, or atleast those of us that understand.