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Hope you manage to get there D1662.
For some reason we left rather late this morning, someone doesn't do early mornings for climbing. So now going to be a very long journey down - driving to Weymouth on a hot weekend so going to be busy. Only one weekend out of my holiday so trying to be relaxed about it. Is annoying though. Can make up for it over the next three weeks hopefully. Always annoying climbing with people who are a lot less motivated, had it for a week in Wales earlier this year (different persont though). |
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I've got an hour and a half drive which hopefully won't be too bad and then the dreaded park and ride all I can think about is whether people will be judging me on how I'm dressed, what I look like, etc. I've abandoned the idea of wearing my pride t-shirt in favour of being a little less conspicuous, I will take it just in case I do grow a backbone on the way down. Oh bugger I forgot i need to get fuel |
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^ Ah, hate it when you forgot the car's empty! I do that all the time
Everyone normally ignores each other on public transport, at least around my area. Like your idea of writing down negative thoughts and comparing them to what actually happens, might pinch that one. Hope it goes well |
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Just doubled the value of my van, put £45 of diesel in it
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Wish I cared enough about anything that I had things to do in my spare time rather than just trying to distract myself. Everything seems pointless at the moment.
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Yeah Brighton was cool, took a couple of pic's of the i360 thing on my phone. Alas I missed out on ice cream. Lol I should have stuck around and had one with spectrelight! Quote:
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Sorry to hear how bad it is for you living at home Johnny !!
It's a shame it is the way it is and they won't even try and have a conversation with you. I hope things look up for you soon, keep your head up That's one of the reasons I don't want my picture as my avatar as the while world can see and what if someone I know sees it! |
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^Glad your ok now
I'm ok thanks, Although I do feel like I've wasted my whole day as ive just been sat in my room all day avoiding my family because they aren't well and I don't want to catch nothing of them ! On the plus side I got to see my niece for an hour or so earlier and that always puts a smile on my face! have I read somewhere before that you have a niece ? |
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How things can turn around in a matter of a few hours.
This morning I felt optimistic, a bit nervous but not too bad, got myself together and set off for my day out in Plymouth, drove there without incident and then it all went for a shit. Because I was too SA to use the park and ride in my infinite wisdom I decided to try and park in the city, what a mistake to make without a decent map I managed to get lost in a maze of one way systems and shitty little streets, adrenaline is now pumping big time, so I spend a good hour aimlessly driving round Plymouth eventually I did find somewhere to park but by now I was ****ed off, I could see where I had to be and people were buzzing about the place with their pride flags and costumes, they just looked so happy and normal and that was it, my bottle went, I couldn't go in there alone. So I sat in the van for a bit procrastinating and beating myself up before deciding with tears rolling down my cheeks to give up and head for home Somehow I made it home in one piece and now have to face the questions, did you have a good time? Why do you look so miserable? What did you go for anyway? Why so secretive? So there we have it - my first pride, I've spent a good five hours driving over two hundred miles and for what? The only souvenir I have is a £2.80 parking ticket! What an absolute disaster. |
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I was supposed to be typing what a great day I'd had and thanking everyone for being so supportive instead I've let everyone down including myself.
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^^ oh no bless you, I'm sorry to hear you have had a nightmare of a day ! !
It's a shame you ended up coming home having missed everything. At least you managed to get home in one piece. |
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You made all that effort to travel that many miles to Plymouth and back and that tells me it was something you really wanted but anxiety etc took over. |
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How lucky to have both ! How old are they ? That's so true! As kids really do say and do some funny things at times. Yes my twin has anxiety too ! She actually found out first she had SA and then I realised well that's what I have too. She's more outgoing than me though and always has been. She's always the first to do things which makes me feel useless just because we are twins and people expect us to be at the same level kind of thing. |
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Right, time to try and look on the bright side
I managed to drive myself two hundred odd miles and didn't have a mishap (getting lost excepted) I definitely wouldn't feel so daunted about making another long journey. My knackered old van proved that it could make it to Plymouth and back with out breaking down, unlike it's owner. The new clothes I bought for this trip can be used for another. Maybe this has made me a little bit more determined to try again. |
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^ that's brilliant you can see the positives to the situation.
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I think if I plan where I'm going better rather than trying to wing it that will reduce the stress a lot. |
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I wish I was straight Purplerose say she can be bought with food
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^^^^^^ well she's a girl she has to be at least a little bit bossy
bless her ! I really need to curb my swearing as I dont want my niece growing up hearing me swear. Yes she has the baby and she has recently moved into her own home too, so she has everything going on. I think being a twin in some ways helped me eg. Having someone to start school with so we were never alone but in other ways I was so used to having her to do everything with that I feel lost now as I don't like doing stuff alone. Do you have lots of sisters ? I have a brother too so I feel lucky I have a brother and a sister. |
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Yep in Nortamptonshire, have you even heard of it ?
Most people stare at me blankLy when I say I'm from Northamptonshire. |
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Why don't I do anything on weekends any more.
I'm utterly useless. There's no reason for me to exist. Somebody switch my brain off. |
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Peterborough is quite a way away from northampton I would say. |