Why So Serious? Why Not?
Posted 10th April 2016 at 21:22 by Amara 94
This question has been on my mind constantly recently.
To some people, I probably appear serious, in fact too serious to some people.
I think I'm a serious person because a lot of the time I have felt like I am not good enough, could be doing better and then misunderstood by others because of anxiety and vice versa. You can't feel frustrated and happy at the same time, hey?
I am also naturally focused and curious to learn certain stuff which sometimes involves being focused. So there is an advantage to being serious.
I know I can be a less serious person, or let's say a more mentally healthy and calmer person if I felt better about myself and had a more healthier attitude towards people. For example, rather than feeling it is me against the world, I could let go of some of my ego and try and understand other people even if they are acting in ways that I find offensive. I could build assertiveness and confidence. But that seems to involve me being serious about taking care of my mental wellbeing. I guess I do need to be serious but also remember to relax and enjoy the present, it's a yin-yang thing.
Living with a parent who doesn't seem financially dependent and seems to be generally more negative than positive and having a sister who seems angry time to time, she was kicking in the bathroom this morning and some tiles are fell off the wall, is frustrating. I don't think you can relax and be happy in an environment that doesn't feel supportive. That said my sister probably finds my anxiety frustrating as well. So in order to relax, I can't just relax I need to make sure there is enough food and toiletries in the house, I need to get a job/apprenticeship then gradually move out and I need to make sure I keep healthy. I'm thinking of jogging again, I can do more exercises but am usually too anxious to do them in public. I'm also thinking of reading my CBT book, idk if I will get to it but I need to work on my mindset to improve my mental wellbeing.
To some people, I probably appear serious, in fact too serious to some people.
I think I'm a serious person because a lot of the time I have felt like I am not good enough, could be doing better and then misunderstood by others because of anxiety and vice versa. You can't feel frustrated and happy at the same time, hey?
I am also naturally focused and curious to learn certain stuff which sometimes involves being focused. So there is an advantage to being serious.
I know I can be a less serious person, or let's say a more mentally healthy and calmer person if I felt better about myself and had a more healthier attitude towards people. For example, rather than feeling it is me against the world, I could let go of some of my ego and try and understand other people even if they are acting in ways that I find offensive. I could build assertiveness and confidence. But that seems to involve me being serious about taking care of my mental wellbeing. I guess I do need to be serious but also remember to relax and enjoy the present, it's a yin-yang thing.
Living with a parent who doesn't seem financially dependent and seems to be generally more negative than positive and having a sister who seems angry time to time, she was kicking in the bathroom this morning and some tiles are fell off the wall, is frustrating. I don't think you can relax and be happy in an environment that doesn't feel supportive. That said my sister probably finds my anxiety frustrating as well. So in order to relax, I can't just relax I need to make sure there is enough food and toiletries in the house, I need to get a job/apprenticeship then gradually move out and I need to make sure I keep healthy. I'm thinking of jogging again, I can do more exercises but am usually too anxious to do them in public. I'm also thinking of reading my CBT book, idk if I will get to it but I need to work on my mindset to improve my mental wellbeing.
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